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the time for celebration has come!

i'm 29 on 29.9 (which happen to be today!)

i'm one happy woman. who wudn't be when they had reason to be.

and these are the reasons for my happiness:

i never thought that i'd be celebrating my 29th birthday surrounded by my love ones.
a loving, sweet & caring husband who had went thru the ups and downs of life together
adorable mischievious children who'd never short of 'antics' to charm my heart




and my darling had carefully choose the flowers for me. after the last incident 07/09 he said no more bunch of roses for me just because it's resembles the namesake of the person who'd cause so much despair to me... how thoughtful of him, and how sensitive that it surprised me a little bit


apart from roses, he didn't know that i actually do adore gerberas so much... thank you darling


yesterday the only 2 person in the office that i can openly share my thought with (tyra banks & naomi campbell, u know who u are) they even shared the same office with me give me an advance birthday flowers because today is an off day (nuzul Al-Quran), but they wudn't want to miss wishing me happy birthday. how thoughtful of them

2 baskets of flowers enough to make me grin from ear to ear until next year! hehe

and since midnite i started to receive lots of birthday wishes thru sms from budak2 office... which came as a surprise to me coz practically not many know my birth date. i led a low profile life.

Alhamdulillah, syukur pada Allah swt that at 29, i have a family of my own, my life is filled with love and friendship, a career, good health and kesenangan hidup.

Memories Of Ramadhan 2004

if fahmi can remember our memories of ramadhan together in year 2004, he would remember these:

it was during this fasting month 3 years ago that i carried him from the bbsitter house to the clinic for his check up coz he was down with fever and diarrhea. i was pregnant with yaya at that time. afterwards sent him back to the bbsitter house and me had to walk to the bus stop about 2 km from the bbsitter house. we only have one car at that time, hubby yang drive. selalunya on emergency cases like this, me being the one yang plaing hampir will be the one yang rush balik, by bus of course.

i took him to the bazaar ramadhan yang tak jauh dari rumah. i rarely brought him out to a public place, so dia macam terkejut sikit tengok orang ramai. berpusing-pusing kepala dia toleh kiri dan kanan tengok orang. he was such a chubby boy, mudah sangat tarik perhatian orang.

balik dari kerja (selalunya cuba habiskan keje cepat2 so that i can take the ride home dgn hubby) terus singgah ambil fahmi kat rumah bbsitter. rasa terharu tengok air muka fahmi gembira bila nampak mama dia datang ambil. kadang2 dia dah siap berdiri sambil paut pada gril tunggu mama, nampak je mama terus digoncang2 gril pintu. ada jugak masa2nya pipi dia penuh dengan kesan air mata, lebih2 lagi bila muka dia ditepek bedak sekati mcm tepung gomak. sian anak mama kena buli.

bawa dia last minute shopping kat midvalley. kebetulan fahmi baru je elok skit daripada diarrhea nya. elok jer lepas berbuka masuk kereta cirit birit dia datang balik. tak tau mana nak pergi ntah kenapa instead of going back or cari somewhere to clean his nappy, we head towards rumah SIL. tunggu lama punya pasal meraung2 dia kepedihan. teruknya ibu muda ni!

fahmi's 1st raya kami balik raya ke KT. fahmi was up with hi fever. berbekalkan ubat2 dia, kami bertolak jugak balik. kesian sangat kat dia badan panas, walau dah pasang aircon kuat2, sampai tidur pun asyik tersentak2 aja. mama plak kepenatan dan sakit pinggang. kadang2 tak larat nak layan ragam si kecik yang demam. nasib sampai kat kg atuk & nenek take over layan fahmi.

sebenarnya, aku rasa rindu and tak puas berdua dengan fahmi jer. terasa singkat sangat masa untuk kami berdua. tu yang tiap kali ramadhan menjelma macam2 kenangan dengan fahmi mengimbau. rindu...

TAG

5 things found in my bag
- macam2 ada but just list down the top 5 thing jelah ye
ada hp, purse, purse kecil simpan lipstick, car key, office key, my drawer key ... oOps that's more than 5 already

5 things found in my purse
- IC of course, all sorts of card (credit cards/bank cards/MyKids/medical cards etc), driving license, few notes and 'rubbish' (resit atm etc)

5 things in my room
- wardrobe, katil, tilam fahmi & yaya, penyidai telekung & sejadah, dustbin

5 things I've always wanted to do
- teach the children mengenal huruf al-Quran, ajar ABC & 123, berkebun, hias rumah & bawa my kids pergi taman

5 things I'm currently into
- blog, blogging, reading other people's blog, berkebun, surf internet looking for hotel in bali

5 other person i would tag
- Nad @ first timer
- sally @ so much more
- shida @ the clock is beating
- azie @ the apple of my eyes
- nolie

Dream

i've been having series of bad dream about people close to me. strangely these dreams comes only during my nap after sahur and subuh prayer, that is between 6am to 7am.
the first time, i was dreaming about my own bro in law. please don't get me wrong, it was nothing with the SX rated or anything of that sort. in my dream, dad was calling me to let me know that BIL had arranged for gangsters to burn him and his family (that includes my sis & my nieces & nephews) in their nazaria, because he could not stand paying debts (i had no privvy of his financial standing, not that he's in any financial crisis at the moment plus, they are happy family). i hope BIL will never ever read this, or he'd go mad at me for thinking badly of him, which i'm not! i don't know how it came to my dream, i was not thinking of any of my family member let alone BIL when i close my eyes for the short nap after sahur.

the second dream was even more ridiculous! hubby had a laugh when i told him about my second dream. it was about him. i feel ashamed of myself to dream about this. people must think what a possesive & jealous wife i am. in my dream he had another girl. and i caught them sitting together, i went to chase the girl, i wasn't going to slap her, i just asked her what she was doing with hubby, i told her i'm not going to hit her or something, i just want some answers. when i'm satisfied with her answers, i went back to hubby and i hit him hard on his chest, kicking him all over.

my 3rd dream (latest that i had this morning) was much much more ludicrous that the 2nd one. i don't want to talk about it. but why i keep on having this mad, silly dream? its getting weird every night (or i should say morning). it scares me to think how weird it can get. maybe its a sign for me to stay awake and mengaji, solat sunat or do something yang lebih berfaedah other than going back to sleep.

have you ever had weird/strange dream like mine? i hope i'm not alone or else i think i'd gone crazy.

Ramadhan II - SYUKURLAH...

A colleague forward this to my email some time ago. I read it briefly, i didn't deleted it from my mailbox as usual coz what's written in there touches my heart and made me realise how grateful i should be.

Sesungguhnya kita patut BERSYUKUR...
1. utk suami/isteri yg tidur berdengkur di waktu malam, krn beliau tidur disisi kita bukan dengan orang lain.
2. utk anak/adik perempuan kita yg mengomel apabila mencuci pinggan, krn itu bermakna dia berada di rumah, bukan dijalanan berpeleseran.
3. utk cukai pendapatan yg kita kena bayar, krn itu bermakna kita masih mempunyai pekerjaan.
4. utk pakaian kita yang dah tak muat, krn itu bermakna kita cukup makan.
5. utk lantai yg perlu dimop, tingkap yg perlu dilap dan rumah yg perlu dikemas , krn itu bermakna kita mempunyai tempat tinggal.
6. utk bunyi bising jiran², krn itu bermakna kita masih lagi boleh mendengar.
7. utk timbunan pakaian yg perlu dicuci/digosok krn itu bermakna kita ada pakaian untuk dipakai.
8. utk keletihan/kesakitan otot selepas seharian bekerja, krn itu bermakna kita masih berupaya utk kerja kuat.
9. utk tempat letak kereta yg jauh drpd lif, krn itu bermakna kita masih berupaya utk berjalan. 10.utk jam loceng yg berdering pd waktu pagi, krn itu bermakna kita masih hidup untuk meneruskan hari tersebut...

"Jika tak dapat apa yang kita suka, belajarlah menyukai apa yang kita dapat...dan bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kita ada"

Tagging Game

i've been tagged again by Nad @ mommy Iman & sally. sorry guys, it took me ages to response to your tag :-)
btw, how many answers do i have to come out? ok nevermind, just let the answer comes out spontaneously jelah kan

Life isn't complete if I dont get to;

• cium tangan, hug & kiss hubby before he leaves to work. the hug selalunya lama skit partly because both of us still dozy & sejukkk!
• drop a few kisses on fahmi & yaya before my turn to leave home for work
• cook and experimenting with my culinary skills (kunon!)
• put yaya to bed
• yell at the top of my lung at my 2 lil kitten for the mess they make
• blogging ...
• think about what to cook today, tomorrow and the day after, making list of weekly rations and saved them on my mobile phone
• brush my teeth before i go to sleep
• watch hell's kitchen (at the moment)
• browsing for more now recipes

who wud i tag now?

liza @ putralady
shida
azie
ila s2m3r

Ramadhan I

i've not much appetite for food this ramadhan. selalunya i wud not miss the bazaar ramadhan just a few walk away from our house. banyak pilihan from sumptuos lauk pauk to kuih muih. but for the past 3 days i don't have any craving for delicacies. in fact i don't have an idea what to prepare for our buka puasa today. i ate very little nasi for buka, same goes to sahur. last night i cooked nasi goreng ulam and keep them warm in the rice cooker because hubby also was complaining that he doesn't have much appetite for nasi putih and lauk. alhamdulillah, sahur early this morning he ate dengan berselara dan siap menambah. maybe we should go for hidangan yang simple jer.
at times like this, pms wud help me very much. :->
for today, i plan to make bubur lambuk and buah melaka (onde2).
cukuplah for berbuka...

Migrain Attacks

i had another bout of migrain this morning. saki baki of the attack last night. oh yes the throbbing head malam tadi, sebenarnya was an aura of migrain. it turned into a full migrain attack 10mins after i switch of the computer. the throbbing followed by nausea and rasa sakit on the right side of my head. my right eye rasa macam nak terkeluar from its socket. i quickly get my Cafergot supply, i've been carrying it inside my handbag for the past 4 months, that is ever since the attack returns after more than 3 years disappear from my life.

it took sometime for the pain killer to work its way. my limbs felt numb, although the pain killer buat bahagian muka sebelah kanan rasa kebas, but my eye still hurts, and my head felt heavy. i had to lie down on my left, any movement would sent the pain right to my head. alhamdulillah after lying down quitely for i'm not so sure how long, the pain goes away.

i hate to take the pain killer sebenarnya. because the after effect irritates me. aku jadi alert, jadi cergas dan hilang mengantuk, when i should be resting and sleep.

like i said, i haven't had the attack for more than 3 years. the last attack was when i was carrying fahmi. i was totally freed from migrain or headache after i gave birth to fahmi. i don't know why or how, hanya Allah swt saja yang tahu. i used to carry cafergot inside my purse, but once i'm freed from migrain, i've get rid of them. last 4 months when i my 1st attack returns, i had to makesure that i'm not short of supply.

i've yet to find out why. that's why i made a visit to see my doctor today. she took some blood sample for blood test to see if the migrain have any correlation to hormonal changes.

dulu-dulu i'd stay away from taking or exposing myself to any risk of attack. chocolates, cheese, caffein, anything too salty or sour, too strong scented perfumes, loud sounds, hot weather mahupun cahaya terlalu terang mudah sangat invite the attack. and also pressure.

the attack that i had last 4 months wasn't the worse one despite causing sebelah mataku temporarily blind. i had the worse attack in my life while taking my history paper for stpm. had to think and write the answers dengan kepala yang sakit and one eye went blind. that explains why i got a C for my history paper! :-<

but now i'm not too sure why i started to have the attack semula. seems like i had to start taking notes whenever i have the attack.

note: both fahmi & yaya masih selsema & batuk, though not as bad as 3 days before. last night they fell asleep far too early. yaya woke up right at the struck of midnight, and refuse to go to sleep. she insisted to be accompanied by Mummy, the new version of Mama that she picked up while i explained to her that there are many other version of mother but it all has the same meaning. despite my headache, i could only sleep after she felt tired and went to sleep. by that time, it was already 2.33am.

House Project?

i've been planning to do something about the furniture arrangement in our living room. and i also been wanting to get rid of the old chest of drawers that housed my childrens outfit. the chest of drawers is in dire need of replacement. plus it is such a sore sight to see them sitting at the corner of our living room right under the stairs. i wanted to move them up to our bedroom or the children's room but hubby objected to my suggestion because he said the room will be crowded. so i let the drawers crowding the living room for some time until i could persuade him one more time.

alhamdulillah... berjaya juga memujuk hubby. on sunday morning, off we go hunting for new cupboard for the children. we also get a new tv cabinet, which i've been planning to buy. both item selling very cheap. later that afternoon when the furniture arrives, we transfer the childrens outfit in to the new cupboard and re-arrange the sofas and tv cabinet at our living room. the results... tarra


last time we sat watching the tv facing the staircase. now we're facing the wall. better sight...

before we went for furniture hunting, hubby moved the car out from the parking space to give way to the children cycling around the compound.



1st, abang took adik for a ride



next, abang bully adik into pushing him around ... adik pulak seronok sangat dapat sorong abang yg 2 times her weight & size

Surprises

Today is full of surprises.

Surprise #1

I reached office very late today, because I took my children to the clinic first thing in the morning. They had flu and had been coughing for a couple of days. It was raining this morning and the traffic was bad, so we reached the clinic quite late. And to my surprise, the clinic was full! Full of sick adults and children. Most of them had cough and flu just like my children. Registered our name at the counter and waited for our name to be called. The whole process from the moment we stepped in to the clinic until the pharmacy issued the medication for the children took about 1 ½ hour. But I felt like we were there for ages! Afterwards, we sent the children home and we (me & hubby) drove to office separately without realizing that another surprise is waiting for me right on my table!

Surprise #2

I was so distress last Friday for not getting any flowers from ‘him’ on our anniversary. I know he remembered the date, we even talk about having a dinner together, only the two of us, which we had. But I was also hoping that he’d remember to send me flowers, to seal our 5th anniversary. Which he had forgotten about sending the flowers. i was so distress, so upset that I could not face him later that day. I know it was so childish of me having acted that way on our anniversary.

It was not his fault that I felt so distress and lost my appetite for a celebration dinner. It was all due to the hard time I’m facing at the office. I’ve never had a bad week; I’ve had bad days, but never a bad week. Last week was a total disaster for me from the beginning of Monday till the end of Friday, and it still continues. I tried to gain composure on Friday, mainly because it was our anniversary, I wanted to be happy, I have a reason to be happy even if I can’t on other days, at least I must be happy last Friday. Thanks to ‘someone’ from the office that had ruin my happiness.

So, despite the whole disaster in the office that I had to face, I was hoping that miracle would happen. I wished so much that I’d received a bunch of flowers. Okay if a bunch is a bit too much, well at least a stalk of rose would make my day. It doesn't matter if he'd forgotten about the flowers, but i was so down the whole week, so i need something just to make me smile.

The office turns in to a chaos this morning. They could not locate the recipient by the name ‘Mimie’. Nasib baik my colleague flips through the delivery slip, and saw my full name spells out in the slip. He wanted to give me a pleasant surprise, which he did. It was totally unexpected.

Darling, I know you’d read this, I am truly sorry that I acted childishly last Friday. But if my action that day resulted in to this,

I don’t regret it one bit! ;-)


Surprise #3
I reached home at almost 8 o’clock to find my son sprawled on the sofa at our living room. He was asleep! The house was so quite. I went upstairs and saw hubby in the computer room. There was no sign of yaya. I took a peek inside our bedroom. I had another surprise seeing yaya sleeping on our bed. This is truly unexpected!

We had a quite night. Which means I can blog. I haven’t been writing that much lately. I don’t have the inclination to do so due to the pressure I’m facing at work.

My head is throbbing. I've swallow 2 tablets of panadol, yet the pain wouldn't go away. I should get some rest.

Happy 5th Anniversary

this is what a woman would ask on her wedding anniversary. but these lovely bunch of yellow roses weren't mine. i belongs to hubby, brought by his loving helpless romantic wife! how very fortunate of him that in my busy schedule i remembered to send him flowers and make him smile on our anniversary. our 5th wedding anniversary to be precise. and i went sulking the whole day and night because he forgot to send me any, not even a note of love. he knows that i adore flowers, i love it so much for him to buy me flowers. i wouldn't mine if he didn't buy me presents, jewellery, handbag, cosmetics etc but flowers.

the fact is that i wouldn't mine if he had forgotten to buy me flowers today. but early in the morning something happen in the office, it ruin my day. i had been feeling rather poorly the whole week, so on this special day i made a mental note to dressed up, i purposely chose to wear my favourite baju kurung, just to make me feel happy, hoping that i could bear going through the whole day to end a disasterous week. but it takes just one irritating annoying and inconsiderate person to ruin my day. oh God, i should be brooding over this issue on my wedding anniversary. forget about it. let's talk about love.

i have been feeling poorly, and dressing up helps. we went for dinner at The Windmill, nothing so fancy or luxurious, just that return back to the restaurant brought back happy memories of of courting days. it brought back the memory where i orchestrated his surprised 27th birthday dinner at the windmill bukit raja. how i went to the extra miles of planning his birthday celebration, carefully chose the birthday cake - being a man he hates choc cake which i loved so much, so i'd chosen a fruity flan cake. i remembered that i walk 2km from my office in port klang to the cake house just to order his cake and a week later went to collect his cake and brought it to the restaurant. i hand it over to the restaurant manager the night before the dinner because i didn't want him to know about my plan. i must thank my roommate, Alifa. she drove me in her silver kancil to the restaurant. if it wasn't for her, i don't think i'd manage to pull out the act.

on the actual day, hubby came to pick me up from my rented flat at about 8pm. i kept my composure cool and unmoving. but half way through the dinner he already sense something when the restaurant crew assembled, ushered a lited up cake and started to sing happy birthday. he covered his face with his hands and were practically trying to hide himself under the table! except that the cake & song wasn't for him. apparently another patron was celebrating birthday on the same night. ha ha ha... i wanted to laugh so hard seeing his frantic face. and all went well. before we left, the malay guy whom i suspected must be the manager in charge that night, whispered a message to hubby "apa lagi bang, kahwin lah cepat2" . which did happen a year after the birthday dinner. and now, here we are, although i wanted so much to return to the same outlet in bukit raja, but considering the time factor, we went to the outlet at subang jaya.

okay enough about sweet memories, i'd probably run out of page if i were to bare all details of the surprised birthday dinner. all i can say is that he was so pleased and surprised. i guess that means no woman had ever did that or did anything close to what i organised for him. i am a self acclaim romantic! and i'm adamant turn my hubby in to one! you can say that's my resolution from this day onward.

it's okay that he had forgotten to buy me flowers today. i'd make sure that he'd never forget it in the near future... and the next occassion is very close enough ;-)

back to the anniversary dinner. i noticed that nothing much had change. the restaurant still offers the same menu, same ambience but this outlet had the very poor quality of service. i made a reservation 3 days earlier but much to my dismay, it wasn't recorded. food was okay lah. i had lobster thermidor... umphh i'm so full later i had to drag myself out from the restaurant. hubby had his all time favourite rib eye steak, which turns to be so succulent i regret chosing the lobster.

Baking Experiment III

it's carrot cake this time. actually it was my 3rd attempt. i got the recipe somewhere on the net. most of the recipes are quite the same, same ingredients and baking method. and i'm surprise at how easy and fast the whole process takes to get the final product. no machine required except for an oven, just beat the eggs and sugar with the egg beater (no need for the mixture machine). other ingredients are measured by cup or spoon. sangat mudah.

and the result.... worth reproduce.



it took me less than an hour from preparation til the cake is ready. on my 3rd time i made the cream cheese topping, need extra time to let the cake cool before spreading the topping. easy kan?