if fahmi can remember our memories of ramadhan together in year 2004, he would remember these:
it was during this fasting month 3 years ago that i carried him from the bbsitter house to the clinic for his check up coz he was down with fever and diarrhea. i was pregnant with yaya at that time. afterwards sent him back to the bbsitter house and me had to walk to the bus stop about 2 km from the bbsitter house. we only have one car at that time, hubby yang drive. selalunya on emergency cases like this, me being the one yang plaing hampir will be the one yang rush balik, by bus of course.
i took him to the bazaar ramadhan yang tak jauh dari rumah. i rarely brought him out to a public place, so dia macam terkejut sikit tengok orang ramai. berpusing-pusing kepala dia toleh kiri dan kanan tengok orang. he was such a chubby boy, mudah sangat tarik perhatian orang.
balik dari kerja (selalunya cuba habiskan keje cepat2 so that i can take the ride home dgn hubby) terus singgah ambil fahmi kat rumah bbsitter. rasa terharu tengok air muka fahmi gembira bila nampak mama dia datang ambil. kadang2 dia dah siap berdiri sambil paut pada gril tunggu mama, nampak je mama terus digoncang2 gril pintu. ada jugak masa2nya pipi dia penuh dengan kesan air mata, lebih2 lagi bila muka dia ditepek bedak sekati mcm tepung gomak. sian anak mama kena buli.
bawa dia last minute shopping kat midvalley. kebetulan fahmi baru je elok skit daripada diarrhea nya. elok jer lepas berbuka masuk kereta cirit birit dia datang balik. tak tau mana nak pergi ntah kenapa instead of going back or cari somewhere to clean his nappy, we head towards rumah SIL. tunggu lama punya pasal meraung2 dia kepedihan. teruknya ibu muda ni!
fahmi's 1st raya kami balik raya ke KT. fahmi was up with hi fever. berbekalkan ubat2 dia, kami bertolak jugak balik. kesian sangat kat dia badan panas, walau dah pasang aircon kuat2, sampai tidur pun asyik tersentak2 aja. mama plak kepenatan dan sakit pinggang. kadang2 tak larat nak layan ragam si kecik yang demam. nasib sampai kat kg atuk & nenek take over layan fahmi.
sebenarnya, aku rasa rindu and tak puas berdua dengan fahmi jer. terasa singkat sangat masa untuk kami berdua. tu yang tiap kali ramadhan menjelma macam2 kenangan dengan fahmi mengimbau. rindu...