Big Boy

fahmi is growing up day by day. i’m so absorbed with my daily work sometimes i just don’t realized how fast the kids is growing.

Like recently we had an argument (yes, my 3yr old boy dah pandai argue) about jeans. one day fahmi insist to don a pair of jeans (long jeans) when i get him dressed for an outing. back then, there was no long jeans in his chest drawer. when I pulled out a pair of ¾ jeans that I bought for him last raya. he refused to don the jeans and said that was not a jeans. a 3/4 jeans is not a jeans? After a long argument it hit me there and then that what he meant was long jeans like the one that nenek put on him last time masa dia kehabisan seluar nak pakai masa kat rumah nenek. but that was kakak farah’s jeans with butterflies & flower prints, takkan mama nak kasi hensem boy pakai jeans girl?

two things hit my mind on the instance. no. 1 my baby dah pandai voice out his preference, which brought me to no. 2 that is, he’s a big boy now, he doesn’t want to be dressed in ¾ or short pants anymore. he wants to be dressed the way a big boy dressed, in long pants/jeans. it made me realized that no matter how hard I tried to keep my children under my wings, I have to face the reality that they are growing up and I cudnt stop them from growing up.

sekarang fahmi dah pandai choose what to wear, he has his own preference. He’s little by little voicing out his mind. my boy is trying to tell me that he’s a big boy now, he doesn’t need me to patronize him the way I did before masa dia kecik.

sekarang kalau bawa dia pergi majlis I dont need to watch over him sangat. he wud make himself comfortable, either sit together among kids around his age or older (I noticed that he’s more comfortable with kids slightly older than him). dia tak kisah langsung kat mana mama & daddy dia, he dun even care about makan. macam masa besday baby neesa kat rumah loveleen (one of pcm forummers), he played with baby hakeem (baby liza putralady) & liza’s younger bro, langsung tak pedulikan mama & daddy. every now and then I wud take a peek over him. sampailah one time tu I saw him sharing a plate of sate with liza’s bro.

but no matter how grown up he is, he wud still be mama’s & daddy’s manja boy. kalau kena buli dengan adik harus menangis sampai tak hingat dunia. tapi ada hari2nya adik akan ‘backing’ abang. like the other day when I teased fahmi bila dia asyik mengaduh sakit lutut (he got his knee scratched masa jatuh kat tempat cuci kereta)

me : eiii abang ni manja lah, nangis jer…
yaya : ‘ukan ‘anja, takit… (bukan manja, tapi sakit)

si kenit ni pun dah pandai argue. the other when i made a remark about hubby's kancil ada 'power', she tried to correct me by saying " 'ukan wower, wower..."
and just now when she said " kikuu..." (refering to a penguin on the cover of her colouring book) i correct her by saying "bukan kikuu, pingu.." she fight back and says " 'ukan kikuu, kikuu!"

seronoknya ada kawan bertekak nih :)

Anak Sape Nih?

hubby snap these photos masa we all balik t'ganu last month for my grandma's funeral. pretending to be an adult yaya so determined to cut her fingernail by herself



with her curls all over her face and her big round eyes, seriusnya potong kuku


eiiiyaahhhh ... "mama jangan kacau tau..."

Weekend Updates

Not so much of a weekend treat for the kids, apart from going out to send fahmi for his Saturday class, we spent most of our time at home, the two lil kittens (fahmi & yaya) berkepit with hubby who just got back from his long outstation trip in malacca . while me as usual bila Saturday off I’d be busy in the kitchen preparing food to tempt my love ones; I made nasi tomato with ayam masak merah & vege dalcha. and I also baked some pineapple tarts yang hubby minta buatkan. except he didn’t eat that much sebab tonsil dia bengkak.

The kids missed their daddy so much. At one point the 3 of us were practically fighting each other to steal his attention. so to be fair to everyone, hubby took us out except we cudnt decide where to go. finally we ended up at SACC mall. it was my idea. mind you I didn’t do it on purpose walaupun hati sebenarnya meronta-ronta nak menjenguk gulati’s. I promised myself I wudn’t spend unnecessarily this month. but I just couldn’t help myself, I promise I wud take a quick peek only but I end up getting myself sepasang printed silk cloth yang sangat cantik & menawan. Harganya… telan air liur pun tersekat. Mmmph… I closed my eyes and forget about the $$$ tag. there goes my azam, konon2 this month nak control shopping. huh control kunon…

though it was just a short outing, the kids have a fun time running here and there. pantang nampak air. they were so attracted by the small replica of a fountain depan restoran asiari, and also the big fountain depan dave’s deli. they’d be inside the pool if I let them be.

Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder

Hubby been away for 3days now. He’s due to comeback on Friday. He hasn’t been taking outstation job since we had fahmi. Lately with the demand from his office, guess me & the kids have to get used to not having him around for 3-5 days a month, I hope it wud stay as occasional trip only. When we’re apart, we text each other.

hubby : boring lah… mkn sowang2… dok bilik sowang2… eeeiii… boringggggggg
me : tulah sapa suh duduk hotel asing2… Ur kids solat maghrib sama2 tadi & baca doa
hubby : bagus diaorg
me : gaduh skit2, x mengamuk teruk. tadi fahmi kata klu daddy xde, nnti kita dpt daddy baru
hubby : (shocked)
me : hahaha sy pun terkejut. dia boring kot tu dia ckp cam2
hubby : bg tahu dia, daddy pergi sbb fahmi x moh dengar ckp daddy… suka marah daddy… heheh mesti dia meraung lps tu kekekeke (fahmi almost did but he quickly
compose himself and came with his cool reply)
me : fahmi kata dia x nak marah daddy lg.

the two lil kittens really miss their daddy but they are doing fine so far. maybe masih belum sampai tahap rindu giler lagi kot. wait and see in another 1 day, I’m sure they’re going to loose it. the last time hubby left us for a long outstation trip, fahmi & yaya betul2 cannot tahan rindu they resort to throwing tantrums kat mama… sian mama huhu.

i hope I can still keep them occupied so that they wudnt ask much about mana daddy & bila daddy nak balik. dah 2 nights berturut2 fahmi & yaya performed maghrib prayer with mama. I purposely recited the doa loudly afterwards, for their benefit, harap2 anak2ku itu faham doa ku.
and me? whenever hubby left whether for a short trip or a long trip, he took with him half of my soul leaving a huge empty hole in my heart & mind. I miss my darling sooo much.

Mirror Mirror On The Wall

beauty is only skin-deep

“It means that you shouldn't care about what a person looks like because it's only the outside. If someone is really good looking and is a total jerk, do you think that you'd like that person? No way! If a person were ugly but super nice, would you like to hang out with that person? Probably, yes. Beauty is just the outside, and the inside is what counts!” - source, wikipedia

but for me outer beauty does count. alah bukannya aku nak cantik2 mana pun, cukuplah kalau my face is free from skin problem, spotless and supple. during my ‘younger days’ (huhu that does sounds as if I’m old) I have spotless, flawless, acne free skin. pelik ntah macam mana sejak dah beranak dua ni makin menjadi2 pulak acne, black head, white head, oily in the T-zone area while dry in the jawline & cheek. for some people maybe the flaw can be cover by make up but that’s not going to solve the problem right? plus I don’t wear make up. okay I do wear minimal make up, the usual must have lipstick and 2in1 sun block foundation stick.

I’ve tried many many skin care products, from the cheapest to the expensive ones… but none works on me. I wonder why? maybe I shud consult a certified dermatologist, but where? does anyone knows a good dermatologist in subang area? I never went to see a dermatologist before and never been to any beauty saloon in this vicinity. reason being I’ve not much spare time in my hectic schedule and such visit would take at least what? 2hrs? I saw a saloon dekat subang parade, well at least while waiting for fahmi’s class to finish I can drop by and let my face dibelai2… but I don’t know if this place is good. again if I go to any beauty saloon I’m sure they going to promote their skin care products right? I’m so sick of hopping from one product to another.

recommendations anyone?

Big Plate

I don’t know for how long the big plate restaurant has been standing proudly in subang permai, but ever since I reside in this neighbourhood 5 years ago, the name has become a household name. some of my officemates who resides in neighbouring area has been telling me that i should try the big plate, they serve delicious western cuisine. tak pernah lagi rasa terpanggil to try out this restaurant but kebelakangan ni rasa terpanggil untuk mencuba. sangat2 terpanggil… another sign of pms syndrome?

last Friday was my pay day so ajak hubby to have dinner at big plate. except that it turns out hubby had to foot the bill instead coz my pay is on 1 day float…hehehe… ;-) we arrive at almost 9pm, the restaurant that’s occupying 3 rows of shoplots is almost full! i’m a big fan of dory fish so I chose to try out their Pan Fried Dory Fillet serve with potato salad and fresh vegetables. Hubby chose his all time favourite lamb chop or famously known at the restaurant as Kambing Banting serve with black pepper sauce, potato wedges, veggies & corn on cob. hubby had the gut to ask why banting not klang? I dunno whether it means they get their supply from banting but most of their poultry dishes accompanied with the word banting. we ordered kiddies spaghetti in creamy sauce for my kids and sautéed chicken serve with potato wedges & corn for bibik.

luckily before we left home my kids already had some light meal & I managed to duck into a few pieces of pegedil kentang at home. if not I think I wud be screaming at them coz the serving time was far beyond the tolerable time limit. we had to wait for 1 hour for our food to be served! hubby who came empty stomach had to chew on his patient, and the kids start throwing their tantrums not because they were hungry for food, i guess they were bored. me & hubby plak keep on scolding them from crawling under the table. from the minutes the waiter took our order, the drinks were only served to us after 30mins.

okay maybe I’m not a professional food critic from a reputable mags etc but this is based from my own personal experience eating there. mejanya kotor, I ask for a wet cloth from the waiter but she didn’t came back, I had to ask from another waiter. the ambience was far from cosy, it was a typical malay restaurant, they serve food so the interior deco was not given much detail, lighting was very bad you can see burnt light bulbs tak berganti, the floor was dirty, tables tak tersusun dengan baik. although you go there just for makan2 but the atmosphere and cleanliness does count, for me at least.

apart from that, the food was very very delicious. I like the way my pan fried dory presented, and am surprised to see a dash of red & black caviar on top of the fish. the fish was juicy… ummm yummy. hubby’s large portion of kambing banting was not bad. same goes to bibik’s sautéed chicken & the kids spaghetti. all in all the 1 hour waiting in agony worth it.


we wud frequent the place if they’d upgrade their service and tidy up the place. they should employ more waiter/attendant considering what a big name they are in town. I heard they had 5 branches in klang valley. it seems they are doing well.

i'd go again next time, maybe berdua lebih baik :-)

p/s: pics will be upload later... err much much later coz hubby is away for the whole week. snapshots taken using his hp camera

Run Forest Run...

ask myself : what do u do when u have problems?

I may seem like such a calm person in the outside, but inside am like a bomb waiting to explode. if u can scan into my brain, u can see birds and stars and comets cram into my head.

ok, back to the question above. what do u do when u have problems? there are 2 options from which I choose depending on the type of problem. I wud either keep mum about it or I talk to somebody. and who’s that ‘lucky’ somebody? No. 1 my soulmate, no.2 my mum.

I talk to hubby coz in him I always found strength. say, I know I want to do A but not B but I just want to be sure that I’d do the right thing, so I’d turn to hubby and laid the circumstances and see what he have to say. in most cases, he wud ask me back what do I want to do. that shows how deep he knows the strong headed woman he married to. he knows that I’m in charge of my life, I wudnt be swayed by other people. he wud always give the answer and encouragement that I ask for. but under the circumstances I’ve been (the one that I wrote in my most recent entry) I really loose it. and of course this is one crucial situation where hubby doesnt want whatever advice he gave me wud jeopardise my relationship with dad.

so i turn to mum. talk to her and try to make her understand my situation. it’s always been like that actually. as I realized if I’ve been put under a tight situation by dad, and i'm afraid i wud hurt his feeling, I wud always turn to my mum, hoping that she wud use her influence to ease the path for me. so I left the ‘matter’ into mum’s hand.

I haven’t received any call at all from dad since I left sban on Sunday, can I assume that it’s a closed case?

come to think of the way I handle the whole situation, i didn’t actually tackle it on my own. I drop the whole thing and run… like forest gump… run forest run. I’m not proud of it.