Migrain Attacks

i had another bout of migrain this morning. saki baki of the attack last night. oh yes the throbbing head malam tadi, sebenarnya was an aura of migrain. it turned into a full migrain attack 10mins after i switch of the computer. the throbbing followed by nausea and rasa sakit on the right side of my head. my right eye rasa macam nak terkeluar from its socket. i quickly get my Cafergot supply, i've been carrying it inside my handbag for the past 4 months, that is ever since the attack returns after more than 3 years disappear from my life.

it took sometime for the pain killer to work its way. my limbs felt numb, although the pain killer buat bahagian muka sebelah kanan rasa kebas, but my eye still hurts, and my head felt heavy. i had to lie down on my left, any movement would sent the pain right to my head. alhamdulillah after lying down quitely for i'm not so sure how long, the pain goes away.

i hate to take the pain killer sebenarnya. because the after effect irritates me. aku jadi alert, jadi cergas dan hilang mengantuk, when i should be resting and sleep.

like i said, i haven't had the attack for more than 3 years. the last attack was when i was carrying fahmi. i was totally freed from migrain or headache after i gave birth to fahmi. i don't know why or how, hanya Allah swt saja yang tahu. i used to carry cafergot inside my purse, but once i'm freed from migrain, i've get rid of them. last 4 months when i my 1st attack returns, i had to makesure that i'm not short of supply.

i've yet to find out why. that's why i made a visit to see my doctor today. she took some blood sample for blood test to see if the migrain have any correlation to hormonal changes.

dulu-dulu i'd stay away from taking or exposing myself to any risk of attack. chocolates, cheese, caffein, anything too salty or sour, too strong scented perfumes, loud sounds, hot weather mahupun cahaya terlalu terang mudah sangat invite the attack. and also pressure.

the attack that i had last 4 months wasn't the worse one despite causing sebelah mataku temporarily blind. i had the worse attack in my life while taking my history paper for stpm. had to think and write the answers dengan kepala yang sakit and one eye went blind. that explains why i got a C for my history paper! :-<

but now i'm not too sure why i started to have the attack semula. seems like i had to start taking notes whenever i have the attack.

note: both fahmi & yaya masih selsema & batuk, though not as bad as 3 days before. last night they fell asleep far too early. yaya woke up right at the struck of midnight, and refuse to go to sleep. she insisted to be accompanied by Mummy, the new version of Mama that she picked up while i explained to her that there are many other version of mother but it all has the same meaning. despite my headache, i could only sleep after she felt tired and went to sleep. by that time, it was already 2.33am.

House Project?

i've been planning to do something about the furniture arrangement in our living room. and i also been wanting to get rid of the old chest of drawers that housed my childrens outfit. the chest of drawers is in dire need of replacement. plus it is such a sore sight to see them sitting at the corner of our living room right under the stairs. i wanted to move them up to our bedroom or the children's room but hubby objected to my suggestion because he said the room will be crowded. so i let the drawers crowding the living room for some time until i could persuade him one more time.

alhamdulillah... berjaya juga memujuk hubby. on sunday morning, off we go hunting for new cupboard for the children. we also get a new tv cabinet, which i've been planning to buy. both item selling very cheap. later that afternoon when the furniture arrives, we transfer the childrens outfit in to the new cupboard and re-arrange the sofas and tv cabinet at our living room. the results... tarra


last time we sat watching the tv facing the staircase. now we're facing the wall. better sight...

before we went for furniture hunting, hubby moved the car out from the parking space to give way to the children cycling around the compound.



1st, abang took adik for a ride



next, abang bully adik into pushing him around ... adik pulak seronok sangat dapat sorong abang yg 2 times her weight & size

Surprises

Today is full of surprises.

Surprise #1

I reached office very late today, because I took my children to the clinic first thing in the morning. They had flu and had been coughing for a couple of days. It was raining this morning and the traffic was bad, so we reached the clinic quite late. And to my surprise, the clinic was full! Full of sick adults and children. Most of them had cough and flu just like my children. Registered our name at the counter and waited for our name to be called. The whole process from the moment we stepped in to the clinic until the pharmacy issued the medication for the children took about 1 ½ hour. But I felt like we were there for ages! Afterwards, we sent the children home and we (me & hubby) drove to office separately without realizing that another surprise is waiting for me right on my table!

Surprise #2

I was so distress last Friday for not getting any flowers from ‘him’ on our anniversary. I know he remembered the date, we even talk about having a dinner together, only the two of us, which we had. But I was also hoping that he’d remember to send me flowers, to seal our 5th anniversary. Which he had forgotten about sending the flowers. i was so distress, so upset that I could not face him later that day. I know it was so childish of me having acted that way on our anniversary.

It was not his fault that I felt so distress and lost my appetite for a celebration dinner. It was all due to the hard time I’m facing at the office. I’ve never had a bad week; I’ve had bad days, but never a bad week. Last week was a total disaster for me from the beginning of Monday till the end of Friday, and it still continues. I tried to gain composure on Friday, mainly because it was our anniversary, I wanted to be happy, I have a reason to be happy even if I can’t on other days, at least I must be happy last Friday. Thanks to ‘someone’ from the office that had ruin my happiness.

So, despite the whole disaster in the office that I had to face, I was hoping that miracle would happen. I wished so much that I’d received a bunch of flowers. Okay if a bunch is a bit too much, well at least a stalk of rose would make my day. It doesn't matter if he'd forgotten about the flowers, but i was so down the whole week, so i need something just to make me smile.

The office turns in to a chaos this morning. They could not locate the recipient by the name ‘Mimie’. Nasib baik my colleague flips through the delivery slip, and saw my full name spells out in the slip. He wanted to give me a pleasant surprise, which he did. It was totally unexpected.

Darling, I know you’d read this, I am truly sorry that I acted childishly last Friday. But if my action that day resulted in to this,

I don’t regret it one bit! ;-)


Surprise #3
I reached home at almost 8 o’clock to find my son sprawled on the sofa at our living room. He was asleep! The house was so quite. I went upstairs and saw hubby in the computer room. There was no sign of yaya. I took a peek inside our bedroom. I had another surprise seeing yaya sleeping on our bed. This is truly unexpected!

We had a quite night. Which means I can blog. I haven’t been writing that much lately. I don’t have the inclination to do so due to the pressure I’m facing at work.

My head is throbbing. I've swallow 2 tablets of panadol, yet the pain wouldn't go away. I should get some rest.

Happy 5th Anniversary

this is what a woman would ask on her wedding anniversary. but these lovely bunch of yellow roses weren't mine. i belongs to hubby, brought by his loving helpless romantic wife! how very fortunate of him that in my busy schedule i remembered to send him flowers and make him smile on our anniversary. our 5th wedding anniversary to be precise. and i went sulking the whole day and night because he forgot to send me any, not even a note of love. he knows that i adore flowers, i love it so much for him to buy me flowers. i wouldn't mine if he didn't buy me presents, jewellery, handbag, cosmetics etc but flowers.

the fact is that i wouldn't mine if he had forgotten to buy me flowers today. but early in the morning something happen in the office, it ruin my day. i had been feeling rather poorly the whole week, so on this special day i made a mental note to dressed up, i purposely chose to wear my favourite baju kurung, just to make me feel happy, hoping that i could bear going through the whole day to end a disasterous week. but it takes just one irritating annoying and inconsiderate person to ruin my day. oh God, i should be brooding over this issue on my wedding anniversary. forget about it. let's talk about love.

i have been feeling poorly, and dressing up helps. we went for dinner at The Windmill, nothing so fancy or luxurious, just that return back to the restaurant brought back happy memories of of courting days. it brought back the memory where i orchestrated his surprised 27th birthday dinner at the windmill bukit raja. how i went to the extra miles of planning his birthday celebration, carefully chose the birthday cake - being a man he hates choc cake which i loved so much, so i'd chosen a fruity flan cake. i remembered that i walk 2km from my office in port klang to the cake house just to order his cake and a week later went to collect his cake and brought it to the restaurant. i hand it over to the restaurant manager the night before the dinner because i didn't want him to know about my plan. i must thank my roommate, Alifa. she drove me in her silver kancil to the restaurant. if it wasn't for her, i don't think i'd manage to pull out the act.

on the actual day, hubby came to pick me up from my rented flat at about 8pm. i kept my composure cool and unmoving. but half way through the dinner he already sense something when the restaurant crew assembled, ushered a lited up cake and started to sing happy birthday. he covered his face with his hands and were practically trying to hide himself under the table! except that the cake & song wasn't for him. apparently another patron was celebrating birthday on the same night. ha ha ha... i wanted to laugh so hard seeing his frantic face. and all went well. before we left, the malay guy whom i suspected must be the manager in charge that night, whispered a message to hubby "apa lagi bang, kahwin lah cepat2" . which did happen a year after the birthday dinner. and now, here we are, although i wanted so much to return to the same outlet in bukit raja, but considering the time factor, we went to the outlet at subang jaya.

okay enough about sweet memories, i'd probably run out of page if i were to bare all details of the surprised birthday dinner. all i can say is that he was so pleased and surprised. i guess that means no woman had ever did that or did anything close to what i organised for him. i am a self acclaim romantic! and i'm adamant turn my hubby in to one! you can say that's my resolution from this day onward.

it's okay that he had forgotten to buy me flowers today. i'd make sure that he'd never forget it in the near future... and the next occassion is very close enough ;-)

back to the anniversary dinner. i noticed that nothing much had change. the restaurant still offers the same menu, same ambience but this outlet had the very poor quality of service. i made a reservation 3 days earlier but much to my dismay, it wasn't recorded. food was okay lah. i had lobster thermidor... umphh i'm so full later i had to drag myself out from the restaurant. hubby had his all time favourite rib eye steak, which turns to be so succulent i regret chosing the lobster.

Baking Experiment III

it's carrot cake this time. actually it was my 3rd attempt. i got the recipe somewhere on the net. most of the recipes are quite the same, same ingredients and baking method. and i'm surprise at how easy and fast the whole process takes to get the final product. no machine required except for an oven, just beat the eggs and sugar with the egg beater (no need for the mixture machine). other ingredients are measured by cup or spoon. sangat mudah.

and the result.... worth reproduce.



it took me less than an hour from preparation til the cake is ready. on my 3rd time i made the cream cheese topping, need extra time to let the cake cool before spreading the topping. easy kan?

Baking Experiment II

i made chicken curry bun this afternoon. my first experiment after many many years, i used to make sausage bun and cinnamon roll during my teenage years, but i've discarded the idea of baking sebab i don't have an oven in my kitchen before.

i omit the dough enhancer from the recipe, jadinya bun tu tak lah selembut mana. makan panas2 sedaplah, dah sejuk agak keras & dry. next time i'll add the dough enhancer.


saw the brown spots? tu sebab sapu dengan egg yolk


Bahan:
500 gm tepung, 30 gm susu tepung, 50 gm gula, 1 paket ibu roti (mauripan), 1 biji telur, 1/2tsp garam, 1/2 tsp baking powder, 250 ml air & 80 gm mentega (lembutkan). klu letak bread improver 1 tsp only.

sift together flour, milk powder, salt & bread improver. in a bowl, combine together with sugar, yeast & egg. add softed butter and water, mix well dalam 10mins. leave the dough for 15mins-20mins to rise. bulatkan kecil2, put it aside to rise. leperkan dgn jari, letak inti & bulatkan semula. panaskan oven to 200deg, and let the dough rise sementara oven panas. bakar for 20mins.

Bedtime Stories

i used to dream that if i have children one day i'd make time to read them stories before they go to sleep. i like the idea of parents (mum or dad) reading stories to put their children to bed. in fact i wanted to do a lot of things with my children like turn baking into fun time with them, build sand castle bila balik kampung, etc but none had ever materialised. okay maybe i exaggerate, some i did do but there are still many many things that i plan to do but never did. like reading bedtime stories to them, i have never do anything of the sort until recently. very recent, just 2 nights ago i've started reading them bedtime stories.

alhamdulillah, they enjoy it. and i enjoy it too. we (me & hubby) always had problem to put them to bed. we never put them to sleep at the same time every night. we just let them linger around us, watch tv with us until they started to yawn or until they beat us to oblivion. it is always either they fall asleep first or we fall asleep. but alhamdulillah after 2 nights i can see the difference. but i would have to read them at least 3 stories and had to make all the sound effects that i can, the moo moo, the buzzz buzzz, and etc or else they would not be satisfied. my bedroom turn into a kindy at night. after i finished reading the 3rd story i'd told them that mama will tell them more stories tomorrow night if they'd listen to mama and go to sleep. which they did eventually.

so now takdelah anak2ku tido lewat sangat. sedikit improvement...