Memories Of Ramadhan 2004

if fahmi can remember our memories of ramadhan together in year 2004, he would remember these:

it was during this fasting month 3 years ago that i carried him from the bbsitter house to the clinic for his check up coz he was down with fever and diarrhea. i was pregnant with yaya at that time. afterwards sent him back to the bbsitter house and me had to walk to the bus stop about 2 km from the bbsitter house. we only have one car at that time, hubby yang drive. selalunya on emergency cases like this, me being the one yang plaing hampir will be the one yang rush balik, by bus of course.

i took him to the bazaar ramadhan yang tak jauh dari rumah. i rarely brought him out to a public place, so dia macam terkejut sikit tengok orang ramai. berpusing-pusing kepala dia toleh kiri dan kanan tengok orang. he was such a chubby boy, mudah sangat tarik perhatian orang.

balik dari kerja (selalunya cuba habiskan keje cepat2 so that i can take the ride home dgn hubby) terus singgah ambil fahmi kat rumah bbsitter. rasa terharu tengok air muka fahmi gembira bila nampak mama dia datang ambil. kadang2 dia dah siap berdiri sambil paut pada gril tunggu mama, nampak je mama terus digoncang2 gril pintu. ada jugak masa2nya pipi dia penuh dengan kesan air mata, lebih2 lagi bila muka dia ditepek bedak sekati mcm tepung gomak. sian anak mama kena buli.

bawa dia last minute shopping kat midvalley. kebetulan fahmi baru je elok skit daripada diarrhea nya. elok jer lepas berbuka masuk kereta cirit birit dia datang balik. tak tau mana nak pergi ntah kenapa instead of going back or cari somewhere to clean his nappy, we head towards rumah SIL. tunggu lama punya pasal meraung2 dia kepedihan. teruknya ibu muda ni!

fahmi's 1st raya kami balik raya ke KT. fahmi was up with hi fever. berbekalkan ubat2 dia, kami bertolak jugak balik. kesian sangat kat dia badan panas, walau dah pasang aircon kuat2, sampai tidur pun asyik tersentak2 aja. mama plak kepenatan dan sakit pinggang. kadang2 tak larat nak layan ragam si kecik yang demam. nasib sampai kat kg atuk & nenek take over layan fahmi.

sebenarnya, aku rasa rindu and tak puas berdua dengan fahmi jer. terasa singkat sangat masa untuk kami berdua. tu yang tiap kali ramadhan menjelma macam2 kenangan dengan fahmi mengimbau. rindu...

TAG

5 things found in my bag
- macam2 ada but just list down the top 5 thing jelah ye
ada hp, purse, purse kecil simpan lipstick, car key, office key, my drawer key ... oOps that's more than 5 already

5 things found in my purse
- IC of course, all sorts of card (credit cards/bank cards/MyKids/medical cards etc), driving license, few notes and 'rubbish' (resit atm etc)

5 things in my room
- wardrobe, katil, tilam fahmi & yaya, penyidai telekung & sejadah, dustbin

5 things I've always wanted to do
- teach the children mengenal huruf al-Quran, ajar ABC & 123, berkebun, hias rumah & bawa my kids pergi taman

5 things I'm currently into
- blog, blogging, reading other people's blog, berkebun, surf internet looking for hotel in bali

5 other person i would tag
- Nad @ first timer
- sally @ so much more
- shida @ the clock is beating
- azie @ the apple of my eyes
- nolie

Dream

i've been having series of bad dream about people close to me. strangely these dreams comes only during my nap after sahur and subuh prayer, that is between 6am to 7am.
the first time, i was dreaming about my own bro in law. please don't get me wrong, it was nothing with the SX rated or anything of that sort. in my dream, dad was calling me to let me know that BIL had arranged for gangsters to burn him and his family (that includes my sis & my nieces & nephews) in their nazaria, because he could not stand paying debts (i had no privvy of his financial standing, not that he's in any financial crisis at the moment plus, they are happy family). i hope BIL will never ever read this, or he'd go mad at me for thinking badly of him, which i'm not! i don't know how it came to my dream, i was not thinking of any of my family member let alone BIL when i close my eyes for the short nap after sahur.

the second dream was even more ridiculous! hubby had a laugh when i told him about my second dream. it was about him. i feel ashamed of myself to dream about this. people must think what a possesive & jealous wife i am. in my dream he had another girl. and i caught them sitting together, i went to chase the girl, i wasn't going to slap her, i just asked her what she was doing with hubby, i told her i'm not going to hit her or something, i just want some answers. when i'm satisfied with her answers, i went back to hubby and i hit him hard on his chest, kicking him all over.

my 3rd dream (latest that i had this morning) was much much more ludicrous that the 2nd one. i don't want to talk about it. but why i keep on having this mad, silly dream? its getting weird every night (or i should say morning). it scares me to think how weird it can get. maybe its a sign for me to stay awake and mengaji, solat sunat or do something yang lebih berfaedah other than going back to sleep.

have you ever had weird/strange dream like mine? i hope i'm not alone or else i think i'd gone crazy.

Ramadhan II - SYUKURLAH...

A colleague forward this to my email some time ago. I read it briefly, i didn't deleted it from my mailbox as usual coz what's written in there touches my heart and made me realise how grateful i should be.

Sesungguhnya kita patut BERSYUKUR...
1. utk suami/isteri yg tidur berdengkur di waktu malam, krn beliau tidur disisi kita bukan dengan orang lain.
2. utk anak/adik perempuan kita yg mengomel apabila mencuci pinggan, krn itu bermakna dia berada di rumah, bukan dijalanan berpeleseran.
3. utk cukai pendapatan yg kita kena bayar, krn itu bermakna kita masih mempunyai pekerjaan.
4. utk pakaian kita yang dah tak muat, krn itu bermakna kita cukup makan.
5. utk lantai yg perlu dimop, tingkap yg perlu dilap dan rumah yg perlu dikemas , krn itu bermakna kita mempunyai tempat tinggal.
6. utk bunyi bising jiran², krn itu bermakna kita masih lagi boleh mendengar.
7. utk timbunan pakaian yg perlu dicuci/digosok krn itu bermakna kita ada pakaian untuk dipakai.
8. utk keletihan/kesakitan otot selepas seharian bekerja, krn itu bermakna kita masih berupaya utk kerja kuat.
9. utk tempat letak kereta yg jauh drpd lif, krn itu bermakna kita masih berupaya utk berjalan. 10.utk jam loceng yg berdering pd waktu pagi, krn itu bermakna kita masih hidup untuk meneruskan hari tersebut...

"Jika tak dapat apa yang kita suka, belajarlah menyukai apa yang kita dapat...dan bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kita ada"

Tagging Game

i've been tagged again by Nad @ mommy Iman & sally. sorry guys, it took me ages to response to your tag :-)
btw, how many answers do i have to come out? ok nevermind, just let the answer comes out spontaneously jelah kan

Life isn't complete if I dont get to;

• cium tangan, hug & kiss hubby before he leaves to work. the hug selalunya lama skit partly because both of us still dozy & sejukkk!
• drop a few kisses on fahmi & yaya before my turn to leave home for work
• cook and experimenting with my culinary skills (kunon!)
• put yaya to bed
• yell at the top of my lung at my 2 lil kitten for the mess they make
• blogging ...
• think about what to cook today, tomorrow and the day after, making list of weekly rations and saved them on my mobile phone
• brush my teeth before i go to sleep
• watch hell's kitchen (at the moment)
• browsing for more now recipes

who wud i tag now?

liza @ putralady
shida
azie
ila s2m3r

Ramadhan I

i've not much appetite for food this ramadhan. selalunya i wud not miss the bazaar ramadhan just a few walk away from our house. banyak pilihan from sumptuos lauk pauk to kuih muih. but for the past 3 days i don't have any craving for delicacies. in fact i don't have an idea what to prepare for our buka puasa today. i ate very little nasi for buka, same goes to sahur. last night i cooked nasi goreng ulam and keep them warm in the rice cooker because hubby also was complaining that he doesn't have much appetite for nasi putih and lauk. alhamdulillah, sahur early this morning he ate dengan berselara dan siap menambah. maybe we should go for hidangan yang simple jer.
at times like this, pms wud help me very much. :->
for today, i plan to make bubur lambuk and buah melaka (onde2).
cukuplah for berbuka...

Migrain Attacks

i had another bout of migrain this morning. saki baki of the attack last night. oh yes the throbbing head malam tadi, sebenarnya was an aura of migrain. it turned into a full migrain attack 10mins after i switch of the computer. the throbbing followed by nausea and rasa sakit on the right side of my head. my right eye rasa macam nak terkeluar from its socket. i quickly get my Cafergot supply, i've been carrying it inside my handbag for the past 4 months, that is ever since the attack returns after more than 3 years disappear from my life.

it took sometime for the pain killer to work its way. my limbs felt numb, although the pain killer buat bahagian muka sebelah kanan rasa kebas, but my eye still hurts, and my head felt heavy. i had to lie down on my left, any movement would sent the pain right to my head. alhamdulillah after lying down quitely for i'm not so sure how long, the pain goes away.

i hate to take the pain killer sebenarnya. because the after effect irritates me. aku jadi alert, jadi cergas dan hilang mengantuk, when i should be resting and sleep.

like i said, i haven't had the attack for more than 3 years. the last attack was when i was carrying fahmi. i was totally freed from migrain or headache after i gave birth to fahmi. i don't know why or how, hanya Allah swt saja yang tahu. i used to carry cafergot inside my purse, but once i'm freed from migrain, i've get rid of them. last 4 months when i my 1st attack returns, i had to makesure that i'm not short of supply.

i've yet to find out why. that's why i made a visit to see my doctor today. she took some blood sample for blood test to see if the migrain have any correlation to hormonal changes.

dulu-dulu i'd stay away from taking or exposing myself to any risk of attack. chocolates, cheese, caffein, anything too salty or sour, too strong scented perfumes, loud sounds, hot weather mahupun cahaya terlalu terang mudah sangat invite the attack. and also pressure.

the attack that i had last 4 months wasn't the worse one despite causing sebelah mataku temporarily blind. i had the worse attack in my life while taking my history paper for stpm. had to think and write the answers dengan kepala yang sakit and one eye went blind. that explains why i got a C for my history paper! :-<

but now i'm not too sure why i started to have the attack semula. seems like i had to start taking notes whenever i have the attack.

note: both fahmi & yaya masih selsema & batuk, though not as bad as 3 days before. last night they fell asleep far too early. yaya woke up right at the struck of midnight, and refuse to go to sleep. she insisted to be accompanied by Mummy, the new version of Mama that she picked up while i explained to her that there are many other version of mother but it all has the same meaning. despite my headache, i could only sleep after she felt tired and went to sleep. by that time, it was already 2.33am.