Ramadhan IV - Meluah Rasa

i'm exhausted. i came back home from office at almost 1am semalam after spending the whole day menguruskan hal-hal annual dinner next week. and this morning went back to the office to continue doing the seating arrangement and logistic matters. alhamdulillah without interference from the 'top' jam 6ptg tadi siap buat seating arrangement tu. sekarang tinggal cut n paste kepada format floor plan.

rasa ralat sangat sebab di penghujung ramadhan ni bilamana umat Islam berebut2 mencari Lailatulqadar dan memperbanyakkan ibadat, aku sibuk mengejar keduniaan yang nikmatnya sekejapnya. tu belum kira kena hamun lagi... apalah ertinya penat lelah kita kalau tiada penghargaan kan? baik aku duduk atas sejadah mencari keredhaan Tuhan.

for the past 5 1/2 yrs working at this company, aku dah lali sangat dengan hal-hal renyah that i have to dealt with sepanjang bulan Ramadhan ni. mana nak mengatur printing kad rayanya, printing sampul duit raya, coordinate tv commercial utk raya lagi, pastu termasuklah organise annual dinner yang saban tahun mesti nak buat bulan posa. kalau dulu zaman aku jadik seketari bolehlah aku nak jaga semua ni, jadi mata & telinga bos... skg bila dah diberi tugas lain dengan 7 division & department nak kena oversee takkan hal seating arrangement for annual dinner pun nak aku jugak yang atur. adoiii!!! mana tak kerap aku kena migrain.

budak2 committee member ni pun satu hal. dah berbuih mulut aku perturunkan ilmu & wasiat, serupa nenek kebayan dah aku ni, naik kering tekak bulan2 posa ni nak mengajar diaorang. tapi sudahnya sia2 jer wasiat nenek kebayan bila ada benda tak siap & tak ikut spec aku plak yang kena tempias... bos aku ni patut dah kena let go aku sepenuhnya. biarlah seketari baru dia yang take over. aku dulu pun merangkak jugak nak paham 'taste' & preferance dia sampai no IC sendiri pun aku tak ingat! aku dah muak & dah cuak. jangan ingat aku diam selama ni aku terima jer 'peluru berpandu', 'bom atom' yang dilepaskan kat aku. orang diam ni makan dalam tau.

elok2 selsema & dedar aku nak ilang dah datang balik... ni dah dekat nak raya ni...

Ramadhan III - Pre Raya Mood

The kids is very much in raya mood. Just look at them, they are so excited to try out their raya outfit and willingly modeled it in front of us yesterday.


Our theme colour this year is blue, royal blue to be precise. Daddy & fahmi will be wearing baju melayu johor in plain royal blue. Mama & yaya will be wearing baju kurung in matching blue fabric with sequin… i bought the kain at a very cheap price of rm45 for 4mtrs, but since I only need 2mtrs for the baju and kain made from plain fabric (courtesy of daddy & fahmi’s lot), so we were left with another 2 mtrs. Akhirnya jadilah baju kurung for yaya… amboiii lip lap lip lap anak dara mama. However, the one that appears in the pics is a different one.

Basically we’ve had everything covered for raya preparation. From the bajus, kasut, kuihs, furnitures, fittings etc. Except for fahmi’s baju melayu, we are still in search for his samping. I went searching for his samping at subang parade & care4, but couldn’t find any. A colleague suggested jalan masjid india, ohhh pleaseeee don’t ask me to go shopping in kl, samping tak dapat sesat je yang lebih. So yesterday, me & hubby went to PKNS. It wasn’t our usual shopping place, I’d normally went back to seremban for shopping. Heheh dah 6 tahun duk kl/Selangor pun masih buta jalan lagi. Alhamdulillah jumpa jugak, and since we didn’t bring fahmi I wasn’t sure about the size so we ended up buying two pieces of samping, one L sized and another M sized. Both checked blue & white samping.

Sesampai kat rumah, I asked fahmi to try it one. He's so excited that when I asked him to put on the baju + samping, he looked dazzled. He thought that the samping is to be worn alone macam skirt! Aduiii, mama masih waras lagi hehehe.

I also bought yaya a pair of new baju kurung complete with bead trimmings at the colar (the one in the pics). It was so cute, and she really needs extra baju kurung for the company’s buka puasa cum annual dinner nanti. The gap between the dinner and hari raya was so close I don’t want to let her wear her sequin baju kurung and take the risk baju tak sempat kering nanti. Faham2 jelah dah suntuk masa sangat nanti semua bertaburan jadi tak organized. Not when I’ve tried my best making early preparation.

· sofa covers sent for dry cleaning, and it came back looking the same as it looked before laundry. pardon me but for someone who hates to do laundry and dish washing, i don't know how to get the stains removed

· hung the new sheer curtain yesterday. I purposely choose ready made sheer from ikea in purple and magenta shades. It look nice thou without inner layer of plain white sheer. Maybe when the white sheer is ready from laundry I’ll just hang it and see what difference does it made. If the effect look less presentable, I’ll let the white sheer berehat buat sementara waktu.



· the colourful flowers blend together with the wall paint and sheer curtain. It creates a romantic ambience especially under the shower of dim yellow lights.

· raya cookies ordered and received. the only homemade is going to be hubby's all time favourite pineapple tarts but i ordered some as well in case he & fahmi go through a cookies marathon before we celebrate raya. and i also ordered kek lapis sarawak from my sarawakian friend

· and i bought myself blue zircon bangles (is it bangles or bracelet?) to go with my blue kurung moden


· all my nieces & nephews dah dapat their baju raya complimentary from their auntie yang gila shopping baju budak2 kat FOS... pergi FOS jer rm450 terbang...

· buah tangan for MIL dah beli. dah tak tau nak beli apa, baju dah banyak sgt, so i bought a set of Tupperware food containers from her. this year around we will be celebrating 1st raya at MIL's house... iskk iskkk

apart from above apa lagi ye? i'm not good at doing and re-doing list... i had this habit of memorising everything but when the time comes there's a good chance that i'd miss out on one or two thing.

today's menu for berbuka is masakan ala kampung

ikan talang masin lemak nenas, sayur goreng style jawa, ulam selom (mmm my favourite!) and sambal belacan!

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the time for celebration has come!

i'm 29 on 29.9 (which happen to be today!)

i'm one happy woman. who wudn't be when they had reason to be.

and these are the reasons for my happiness:

i never thought that i'd be celebrating my 29th birthday surrounded by my love ones.
a loving, sweet & caring husband who had went thru the ups and downs of life together
adorable mischievious children who'd never short of 'antics' to charm my heart




and my darling had carefully choose the flowers for me. after the last incident 07/09 he said no more bunch of roses for me just because it's resembles the namesake of the person who'd cause so much despair to me... how thoughtful of him, and how sensitive that it surprised me a little bit


apart from roses, he didn't know that i actually do adore gerberas so much... thank you darling


yesterday the only 2 person in the office that i can openly share my thought with (tyra banks & naomi campbell, u know who u are) they even shared the same office with me give me an advance birthday flowers because today is an off day (nuzul Al-Quran), but they wudn't want to miss wishing me happy birthday. how thoughtful of them

2 baskets of flowers enough to make me grin from ear to ear until next year! hehe

and since midnite i started to receive lots of birthday wishes thru sms from budak2 office... which came as a surprise to me coz practically not many know my birth date. i led a low profile life.

Alhamdulillah, syukur pada Allah swt that at 29, i have a family of my own, my life is filled with love and friendship, a career, good health and kesenangan hidup.

Memories Of Ramadhan 2004

if fahmi can remember our memories of ramadhan together in year 2004, he would remember these:

it was during this fasting month 3 years ago that i carried him from the bbsitter house to the clinic for his check up coz he was down with fever and diarrhea. i was pregnant with yaya at that time. afterwards sent him back to the bbsitter house and me had to walk to the bus stop about 2 km from the bbsitter house. we only have one car at that time, hubby yang drive. selalunya on emergency cases like this, me being the one yang plaing hampir will be the one yang rush balik, by bus of course.

i took him to the bazaar ramadhan yang tak jauh dari rumah. i rarely brought him out to a public place, so dia macam terkejut sikit tengok orang ramai. berpusing-pusing kepala dia toleh kiri dan kanan tengok orang. he was such a chubby boy, mudah sangat tarik perhatian orang.

balik dari kerja (selalunya cuba habiskan keje cepat2 so that i can take the ride home dgn hubby) terus singgah ambil fahmi kat rumah bbsitter. rasa terharu tengok air muka fahmi gembira bila nampak mama dia datang ambil. kadang2 dia dah siap berdiri sambil paut pada gril tunggu mama, nampak je mama terus digoncang2 gril pintu. ada jugak masa2nya pipi dia penuh dengan kesan air mata, lebih2 lagi bila muka dia ditepek bedak sekati mcm tepung gomak. sian anak mama kena buli.

bawa dia last minute shopping kat midvalley. kebetulan fahmi baru je elok skit daripada diarrhea nya. elok jer lepas berbuka masuk kereta cirit birit dia datang balik. tak tau mana nak pergi ntah kenapa instead of going back or cari somewhere to clean his nappy, we head towards rumah SIL. tunggu lama punya pasal meraung2 dia kepedihan. teruknya ibu muda ni!

fahmi's 1st raya kami balik raya ke KT. fahmi was up with hi fever. berbekalkan ubat2 dia, kami bertolak jugak balik. kesian sangat kat dia badan panas, walau dah pasang aircon kuat2, sampai tidur pun asyik tersentak2 aja. mama plak kepenatan dan sakit pinggang. kadang2 tak larat nak layan ragam si kecik yang demam. nasib sampai kat kg atuk & nenek take over layan fahmi.

sebenarnya, aku rasa rindu and tak puas berdua dengan fahmi jer. terasa singkat sangat masa untuk kami berdua. tu yang tiap kali ramadhan menjelma macam2 kenangan dengan fahmi mengimbau. rindu...

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5 things found in my bag
- macam2 ada but just list down the top 5 thing jelah ye
ada hp, purse, purse kecil simpan lipstick, car key, office key, my drawer key ... oOps that's more than 5 already

5 things found in my purse
- IC of course, all sorts of card (credit cards/bank cards/MyKids/medical cards etc), driving license, few notes and 'rubbish' (resit atm etc)

5 things in my room
- wardrobe, katil, tilam fahmi & yaya, penyidai telekung & sejadah, dustbin

5 things I've always wanted to do
- teach the children mengenal huruf al-Quran, ajar ABC & 123, berkebun, hias rumah & bawa my kids pergi taman

5 things I'm currently into
- blog, blogging, reading other people's blog, berkebun, surf internet looking for hotel in bali

5 other person i would tag
- Nad @ first timer
- sally @ so much more
- shida @ the clock is beating
- azie @ the apple of my eyes
- nolie

Dream

i've been having series of bad dream about people close to me. strangely these dreams comes only during my nap after sahur and subuh prayer, that is between 6am to 7am.
the first time, i was dreaming about my own bro in law. please don't get me wrong, it was nothing with the SX rated or anything of that sort. in my dream, dad was calling me to let me know that BIL had arranged for gangsters to burn him and his family (that includes my sis & my nieces & nephews) in their nazaria, because he could not stand paying debts (i had no privvy of his financial standing, not that he's in any financial crisis at the moment plus, they are happy family). i hope BIL will never ever read this, or he'd go mad at me for thinking badly of him, which i'm not! i don't know how it came to my dream, i was not thinking of any of my family member let alone BIL when i close my eyes for the short nap after sahur.

the second dream was even more ridiculous! hubby had a laugh when i told him about my second dream. it was about him. i feel ashamed of myself to dream about this. people must think what a possesive & jealous wife i am. in my dream he had another girl. and i caught them sitting together, i went to chase the girl, i wasn't going to slap her, i just asked her what she was doing with hubby, i told her i'm not going to hit her or something, i just want some answers. when i'm satisfied with her answers, i went back to hubby and i hit him hard on his chest, kicking him all over.

my 3rd dream (latest that i had this morning) was much much more ludicrous that the 2nd one. i don't want to talk about it. but why i keep on having this mad, silly dream? its getting weird every night (or i should say morning). it scares me to think how weird it can get. maybe its a sign for me to stay awake and mengaji, solat sunat or do something yang lebih berfaedah other than going back to sleep.

have you ever had weird/strange dream like mine? i hope i'm not alone or else i think i'd gone crazy.

Ramadhan II - SYUKURLAH...

A colleague forward this to my email some time ago. I read it briefly, i didn't deleted it from my mailbox as usual coz what's written in there touches my heart and made me realise how grateful i should be.

Sesungguhnya kita patut BERSYUKUR...
1. utk suami/isteri yg tidur berdengkur di waktu malam, krn beliau tidur disisi kita bukan dengan orang lain.
2. utk anak/adik perempuan kita yg mengomel apabila mencuci pinggan, krn itu bermakna dia berada di rumah, bukan dijalanan berpeleseran.
3. utk cukai pendapatan yg kita kena bayar, krn itu bermakna kita masih mempunyai pekerjaan.
4. utk pakaian kita yang dah tak muat, krn itu bermakna kita cukup makan.
5. utk lantai yg perlu dimop, tingkap yg perlu dilap dan rumah yg perlu dikemas , krn itu bermakna kita mempunyai tempat tinggal.
6. utk bunyi bising jiran², krn itu bermakna kita masih lagi boleh mendengar.
7. utk timbunan pakaian yg perlu dicuci/digosok krn itu bermakna kita ada pakaian untuk dipakai.
8. utk keletihan/kesakitan otot selepas seharian bekerja, krn itu bermakna kita masih berupaya utk kerja kuat.
9. utk tempat letak kereta yg jauh drpd lif, krn itu bermakna kita masih berupaya utk berjalan. 10.utk jam loceng yg berdering pd waktu pagi, krn itu bermakna kita masih hidup untuk meneruskan hari tersebut...

"Jika tak dapat apa yang kita suka, belajarlah menyukai apa yang kita dapat...dan bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kita ada"