Fahmi's New School

fahmi has settled in his new school. today he collected his second uniform, so now he has 2 uniform which can be worn alternately. insyaAllah bila mama ada duit lebih nanti i'd buy him another pair so that takdelah selang dua hari pakai yang sama. we haven't bought him his sports attire though, maybe we could just get him sehelai t-shirt putih with red track bottom. but where to find a pair of red track bottom? it is not a common colour for track bottom. for those who wonder why red let me just tell you that his new school's theme colour is red & white sebab sekolah tu nama dia tadika strawberry so mestilah red kan mana ada strawberry yang biru or kuning.

his new uniform is a three piece suit - white shirt with a mini-tie, red jacket & red shorts (i'll upload the pic later). smart but the only thing yang aku tak berkenan ialah shorts dia tu, it is a short shorts! i think what i'm going to do is i'm going to buy kain ela kaler merah and ask my mum to jahit sepasang seluar panjang. sopan skit kan coz zaman sekarang even budak darjah satu pun dah tak pakai shorts unlike zaman aku sekolah dulu.

i met his english teacher today, dr suhaimi who is also the principal. he told me that fahmi berani bersuara kat sekolah jadi senang nak teach him. alhamdulillah his statement consistent dengan statement teacher smart reader fahmi dulu.

the fact that his new school is within close proximity with my house membolehkan aku drop him to school every morning. nasib baik juga coz his school begins at 8.30, dan aku selalu keluar pergi keje jam 8pagi. jadi on the way tu singgah kejap hantar dia. i really enjoy sending him off to school, this is what i'd like and imagined to do sejak dulu. rasa seronok sangat dapat hantar dia, rasa kepuasan yang susah nak digambarkan. puas sebab dapat buat what i consider as much as my responsibility and also as a privileges of being a mother. i couldn't fetch him from school afterwards though sebab his school ends at 11.30am. luckily the teacher is willing to drop him at home... with a small fee.tapi masa first day kat sekolah fahmi kata dia menangis sebab teacher lambat hantar dia balik. huhu... first time.

Moving Backwards ... and forward

5 months ago i did wrote an entry about me moving out to my new office (room) but i never posted it. and no despite all my rantings pasal keje i did not (at least not yet) move out as in tukar kerja.i am still with the same employer, work with the same company i've worked for the past 7 years. it is just that on the day i celebrated my 30th birthday last year i had moved out from my old office at top floor which i shared with my no.1 boss and his secretary. kiranya aku ni menumpang kat situ. pertama sebab pada masa tu takde bilik kosong dan kedua aku masih lagi dalam transition period; men'transfer' my knowledge kepada my boss's new secretary when i was promoted to my current position. the transition period somehow took longer (more than 1 year) bukan sebab secretary baru tak bagus, she's good at times i even feel that she's doing better than i was. but deep down aku realised it was my boss yang keberatan nak lepaskan aku pergi... the fact that i was his longest serving (read surviving secretary).

ok let's get back on track. so about 5 months ago i moved out from my boss's office in to this shoebox sized room (okay i exaggerate) which was painted blue all over by the previous occupant. i still remember how sad and mellow i felt that day, Allah swt sahaja yang tahu. while others in the company probably has shifted place more than 2 times, aku tak pernah been shifted ke mana2. akulah 'penunggu' setia bilik itu. banyak memori pahit kat situ tapi semua aku telan dan aku simpan, pun begitu bila melangkah keluar terasa berat dan sesak jap dada aku. aku sedih, sedih yang tak dapat nak digambarkan. terasa macam orang terbuang... but it wasn't like that sebenarnya. aku ter'over' sensitif i guess.

walaupun sedih, tapi ada sedikit rasa lega sebab after more than a year co-habiting the same office when i'm no longer his secretary somehow aku rasa kurang selesa, seolah2 macam orang ketiga pulak kat situ. kadang2 aku jadi rasa segan pulak terutama bila aku tau banyak benda2 yang confidential tak sepatut aku tau, tapi sebab dah co-habiting the same office nak tak nak sayup2 tertangkap kat telinga aku.

in the early days i moved out ke this blue room on the ground level aku betul2 rasa disoriented kejap. it took me a while juga nak biasakan diri dengan suasana baru. first, i find the lighting dalam bilik ni agak glaring, the glass window was not shielded with blinds - aku boleh nampak semua orang kat luar and they can see me, takde privacy langsung! tau jelah orang perempuan kekadang nak betulkan tudung nak touch up lipstick... seganlah pulak. then came the noises from outside this room - masyaAllah macam pasar! i used to get a feedback the staff kat floor ni kata sejak aku turun pindah ke bawah diaorang asyik kena marah pasal bising. seriously they are so loud! i couldn't concentrate on my work. and the worst of all adalah kerusi dan meja kerja aku ni height dia tak compatible. kiranya bila aku nak guna keyboard my hands tak rested well atas meja menyebabkan pergelangan tangan, bahu kanan dah belakang badan aku sakit. dah dekat 2 bulan lebih aku menderita sakit bahu & belakang.

tapi lama kelamaan aku dah terbiasa. cahaya lampu tu tak lagi terlalu terang, i don't mind peple peek into my room from outside because there's no blinds/curtain, at the same time i learn to enjoy the wider view and easy for me to monitor movements, and the noise... it doesn't bother me anymore in fact kalau senyap sunyi aku pulak yang jadi risau. and my back, wrist and shoulder dah kurang sakitnya sebab aku alihkan kedudukan pc & keyboard betul2 ke tengah meja... nampak pelik though tapi for my own good.

until today, bila tiba2 aku dapat arahan berpindah semula ke bilik lama which is my boss's office. kalau dulu aku berat hati nak tinggalkan all the priviligese that comes with cohabiting office no.1... hari ni aku keberatan nak masuk semula. because i feel that the relocation was for all the wrong reasons. malas nak cakap pasal ni tapi kali ni rasa hurt tu lain daripada perasaan mula2 kena pindah keluar. this time it is hurt like really hurting me, my pride and my feelings. rasa macam bola pun ada. kesimpulan yang aku buat ialah he's not ready to let me go, not ready to give me independence, not ready to respect me the way anybody in my position should be respected. then why? why in the first place did you give me this opportunity??? rasa macam bola.

on the other hand, fahmi will start at his new school tomorrow. i've visited the school today, spent about an hour to look around but not thoroughly, observe their teachings. this one looks like a real school, like the one i went to masa zaman tabika kemas ku dulu. looks more convincing and they've been around like more than 10years since taman perumahan ni mula dibuka dulu. i sincerely hope that the school is good.

Air Oh Air...

kesian budak berdua tu hari ni tak dapat nasi for lunch. semuanya gara2 kawasan perumahan kami ni putus bekalan air. inilah kejadian yang paling teruk pernah aku alami sepanjang 7 tahun tinggal kat sini. belum pernah lagi kami terputus bekalan air sampai kering tangki setitik pun takde. jammed kepala hotak aku.

bayangkan pagi tadi masa aku tengah syok menyabun badan, bila nak bilas aku buka paip tengok air yang keluar halus sesangat! tak sempat nak bilas badan... gatal kepala aku kejap fikir mana nak cari air. sib dalam bilik air ada berbaki 1 botol lagi air spare. aku tuangkan secukupnya je sekadar untuk bilas badan. aduhh potong stim betul!

memang kami tau malam tadi lagi air dah start berhenti. cuma selalunya dalam tangki tu cukup untuk 1 whole day. tak sangka kali ni habis terus seawal pagi tadi. ni pun gara2 fahmi juga kot coz dia terkucil 2 kali tengah malam tadi, sesuatu yang tak pernah berlaku sejak dia berhenti pakai diapers malam lebih setahun lepas. agaknya habis simpanan air dalam tangki gara2 2 kali bangun bersihkan baju & selimut dia yang terkena urine. harap2 fahmi tak mad at mama coz mention pasal ni dalam blog. he told kakak jangan bagitau orang coz dia malu. nak kata sejuk sangat malam tadi tak juga, panas adalah. sejak seminggu ni kan cuaca kering jer pasang aircon pun masih terasa humid. it will get worse come april nanti.

ow back to the kids' lunch. tengahari tadi dek kerana takde air setitik pun, tak dapatlah kakak nak masak nasi & lauk. fahmi insist nak mandi pagi tadi walhal aku pesan lap2 badan je, simpan air dalam botol tu untuk emergency. satu pagi aku dilanda risau memikirkan anak2 kat rumah. masa lunch break tadi aku minta pantry boy isikan air dalam 3 biji tong kecil & angkut bawa balik rumah. sib baik rumah dengan ofis dekat. on the way tu sempat singgah beli nasi 3 bungkus & lauk pauk sikit. dapat juga anak2 aku makan for dinner petang nanti. untuk lunch memang dah tak sempat, kakak gorengkan burger aja untuk budak berdua tu which according to her, fahmi hentam 1 biji setengah!

harap2 lain kali puspel kalau nak betulkan paip pecah ke bagilah notis awal2. kalau malas nak bagi notis pandai2lah sediakan lori bawa bekalan air ye. main mengejut cenggini selalu letih!

Kek Lagi

masa buat sponge cake untuk birthday my niece tempohari ada lebihan bancuhan kek. aku tuangkan dalam smaller cake tin dan bakar. ingatkan nak simpan je untuk yaya & fahmi makan petang. tapi mengenangkan dalam fridge ada filing perisa lemon dan krimwell masih berbaki, maka hari ni lepas balik dari ziarah hubby's friend dapat baby baru aku pun mulakan operasi membuat krim. vanila sponge cake tu aku belah dua dan lapiskan dengan krim, lemon filing dan cebisan buah oren. asalnya aku ingatkan dalam fridge ada filing orange tu yang aku beli buah oren, rupa2nya filing lemon... takpelah bantai aja untuk makan sendiri apa salahnya kan? harap2 bila buat macam ni cepat sikit habis kek sponge tu... tapi kalau tak habis pun aku dah plan nak hancurkan buat chocolate ball macam yang LG ajar.





pagi tadi we took the kids ke taman jaya lagi. aku surprised tengok yaya yang sekejap je berubah jadi berani compared to our first visit last 2 weeks - she was meek and clingy. kali ni i just let her loose and she was like climbing almost every single permainan yang ada kat situ. even fahmi was not as adventurous as her. agaknya kepenatan bermain pagi tadi sampai tengahari, sekarang ni dia masih terlena lagi. ;-)

Blueberry Birthday Cake

we went to my sister's house at klia government's servant quarters in nilai to celebrate my niece's advance birthday. remember my entry early this week when i said i'm going to bake a cake for my niece? yup... this is the one. i made sponge cake in vanila & chocolate flavour layered with blueberry filing, frosted with buttercream and topped with more bluberry filing. yang kelakarnya aku lupa nak cucuk wordings 'happy birthday'... bare je kek tu jadinya.



buah ceri semua dah kena kebas dengan my boys (yup, like father like son!) and my daughter. ni kes lebih sudu dari kuah

When The Unexpected Happens...

today's class is going to be fahmi's last day at little caliph, subang u5. keseronokan fahmi bersekolah tadika were shortlived due to the school's weak management. from tonitght's meeting with the principal/owner yang baru je habis jam 11pm tadi, we were informed that the teacher had left abruptly the previous week. thus rendering the school management short handed. with only one caretaker and 1 assistant teacher running the school and juggling between 2 schools (haven't i mentioned in my preious entry that they have another branch at alam budiman), menjadikan sekolah fahmi tak ubah macam nursery aja. so the principal decided to shut down the school. they are offering us to be transfer to alam budiman branch tapi memandangkan kami masih lagi belum decide untuk pindah ke rumah baru di alam budiman, we decided to quit.

kalau nak ikutkan perasaan memang meluap2 rasa marah & geram kat management sekolah tu. macam main2-main pulak buka sekolah, suka2 buka suka2 tutup. tapi daripada aku memenatkan diri mengamuk (dahlah balik kerja straight attend meeting dia) baik aku cepat2 fikir pasal alternative school untuk anak aku.

kesian my boy. dah seronok dia bersekolah dan berkawan tiba2 kena berhenti. luckily i got to know about the school's management decision quite early (mid of the week), so cepat2 aku scout for other school. dan nasib baik juga principal tu setuju nak refund balik duit pendaftaran dan segala advance payment yang kami buat, kalau tak memang aku mengamuk kat meeting tu tadi. we have shortlisted 2 schools so far. daripada 2 pilihan ni rasanya kami dah hampir 99% setuju nak hantar fahmi ke tadika strawberry yang tak jauh dari rumah kami. the owner kata transport boleh di atur... bila dia dah cakap macam tu aku rasa lega lah juga sebab walaupun dekat dengan rumah aku takut kalau tiba2 aku atau hubby kena pergi outstation takdelah kami mati kutu memikirkan siapa nak hantar fahmi ke school. aku tak harapkan kakak untuk menghantar... tak berani nak ambil risiko.

syukur kami suami isteri tak mati kutu bila dapat berita ni. maybe sebab sejak dari awal kami memang dah tak puas hati dengan sekolah ni dan aku sendiri pun ada berura2 nak tukarkan dia ke sekolah lain. so dalam kepala memang dah simpan a few option lain. dan nasib baik juga the few school yang aku scout masih mahu terima student walaupun dah 1 bulan lebih sesi persekolahan bermula. emm anak baru masuk tadika dah kelam kabut.

All About Happiness

kak malissa datang pulangkan flask nasi masa aku baru je nak selesai dinner. tinggal sejemput lagi nasi dalam pinggan cepat2 kutinggalkan. hujan lebat baru reda, sayup2 dengar suara orang bagi salam, ingatkan hubby balik dari masjid tapi takkanlah suara hubby halus sangat kan? sedap sangat makan berlaukkan tempe sampai suara suami sendiri pun tak kenal...hihihi. kak malissa singgah kejap je, nak cepat balik takut hujan sambung menyambung. awal2 lagi aku dah cakap aku tak nak sebarang upah untuk nasi beriani yang aku buatkan untuk dia. cukup sekadar dia cover cost barang2 je. aku puas dapat tolong dia. itupun bila dia insist nak bagi jugak aku suruh kasi token kat budak2 jelah. sebelum dia balik sempat kami bertukar2 buah tangan, aku dapat sebekas muffin coklat dari dia, dan untuk dia kuberikan a few packets of rempah nasi beriani.

emmm hujung minggu ni ada projek harijadi lagi. aku plan nak buat kek blueberry untuk harijadi my niece yang duduk kat kuarters klia tu. a surprise for her. teringat betapa teruja nya dia tengok kek spiderman fahmi tempohari & juga doll cake yang aku buat masa raya haji tahun lepas. suka tengok riak gembira kat wajah dia. so my weekend project is all about making a little girl happy.