Sunday 31 May 2009

Shortest Weekend

aku rasa weekend kali ini yang paling singkat & cepat berlalu. entah apa yang aku sibukkan sejak semalam sampai hari ni tak sekali pun aku duduk bersahaja dan berehat. tau2 aja dah malam, dan esok masuk kerja semula. phew! tak sempat nak qada' tidur yang tak cukup minggu lepas dek kerana melayan yaya yang bangun muntah tengah malam.

weekend kali ni aku betul2 takde idea nak masak apa. tanya hubby ada special request tak, takde jawapan yang memberangsangkan. aku pun takde mood nak masuk dapur. nak makan kat luar pilihan terhad. fastfood - mcD, kfc, pizzahut, domino, kenny rogers etc dah berkurun kami tak jejak atas sebab2 tersendiri. last weekend dah pergi manhattan fish market... secret recipe pun dah selalu sangat. gulam mee (kota damansara) sure fahmi menjerit tak nak. lagipun musim panas begini mesti nak lepak tempat sejuk kan?

kalau setakat nak makan nasi campur baik aku masak sendiri je. sudahnya aku buat nasi ayam jelah. dah lama sangat tak buat nasi ayam kat rumah, sebelum aku terlupa macam mana nak masak nasi ayam, elok benarlah aku buat kali ni. kusuruh kakak defrostkan ayam, sambil aku siapkan2 rempah ratus untuk sup, rempah ayam kukus dan tumisan nasi. ayam yang hubby beli semua dah dibogelkan kulitnya (he's very health concious), jadi tak dapatlah aku gunakan kulit ayam untuk perisa tumisan nasi. aku main tipu pakai kiub pati ayam je. hehehe...

bila dah siap rasa macam sekejap sangat aku duduk kat dapur. kalau macam ni mau tiap2hujung minggu aku masak nasi ayam. hehe ;-)
boleh cam tak logo apa ni? nilah logo company tempat hubby kerja. aku ukirkan logo ni atas cuppies yang kubuat for his office makan2.
fahmi sibuk buat latihan ulangkaji sebagai persediaan peperiksaan pertengahan tahun tadika dia lepas cuti sekolah nanti. aku rasa ralat pulak tak sempat lagi duduk bantu dia ulangkaji. entah apalah yang aku sibukkan... hmmph.

Monday 25 May 2009

Up & About

alhamdulillah my fever has gone and i'm back to work as usual, as if nothing had actually happen to me during the weekend. except i'm suffering from sleep deprivation. uaghhh! so sleepy. ada orang telah membuat bunyi2an yang menggangu tidurku sampai pukul 2pagi tak boleh nak tidur. hadoiii tolonglah kasihani aku.

bengkak pada kelenjar tekakku juga dah gone. alhamdulillah i can take solid food seperti biasa which is good sebab badanku yang masih terasa lemah dek demam dan sakit sendi perlukan zat & nutrien. i think i just had a rheumatic fever, like the one i used to had masa tonsilku selalu kena infection dulu. the symptoms were the same. phewww! i thought once you had your tonsils removed semua masalah akan hilang. tapi sebenarnya my health have been much much better than before. dulu masa ada tonsil i had to cope with 10 series of flu and fever setahun. sejak my tonsils were removed, alhamdulillah my health dah improved... after 2 years cuma tahun ni je aku start dapat demam yang agak teruk sikit.

due to my fever last weekend i missed my weekend running. padahal aku dah berjanji dengan fahmi i'd bring him go running again. kesian pulak semalam dia bangun awal pagi tengok mama masih terbaring atas katil, daddy pulak dah menyusup keluar pergi jogging tak ajak dia. i promise myself i'd take him jogging with me this sunday coz i'm working sabtu ni.

Sunday 24 May 2009

Produk Orang Demam

i wrote about my flu symptom in my previous entry. but no i didn't get the flu, instead it turns as high fever instead. i was feeling hot on the outside but cold inside. i don't feel like getting a shower upon returning from work on friday but i hate myself when i'm all weak, so i forced myself to take a bath. after which i proceeded to bake a chocolate cake.

i've already made my plans for the weekends. this week i get saturday off. as you know me already i can't just sit around doing nothing on my long weekend. i had a bad sore throat on friday night which rendered me turning and tossing on the bad, i couldn't sleep, i was feverish. came saturday morning i was too weak to move, i can;t swallow solid food, rasanya ada kelenjar yang bengkak dalam tekakku, it can't be my tonsil coz i've got both removed, but it does feels like tonsils though. hubby told me to cancel my plans, but i've made up my mind. this time around i wouldn't let anything came between me and my plan.

so, inilah hasil kerja orang demam. macam zombie buat kerja ni... i spent 7 hours menyiapkan deco ni.
lepas siapkan kerja tu, i went to the clinic alone. the doctor gave me a very strong antibiotic, ada orang cakap augmentine is the strongest antibiotic but this one is not augmentine. but still from what he said i gather yang ni pun kuat jugak. he reminds me not to take them on empty stomach, i told him how am i going to eat anything at all dengan tekak aku yang bengkak dan rasa macam kertas pasir. i asked for ubat sakit tekak and he prescribed me with some ubat radang and plenty of panadol.

aku ni kekadang terlebih degil. aku balik rumah alas perut dengan pengat pisang sikit lepas tu terus makan ubat. itupun sebab aku dah tak tahan menggigil dan sakit sendi2 semua. aku ingatkan pengat pisang tu cukup untuk alas perut. sebab antibiotik yang aku selalu dapat tak pernah pulak beri effect yang terlalu kuat macam yang kali ni. serta merta perutku sakit mencucuk2. ku ajak hubby makan kat luar, coz i don't think i can stand in the kitchen cooking, and i need something yang mengkecurkan liur. it took sometime after i finish my meal for the pain to subside.

dan pagi tadi aku ambil breakfast secukupnya - tuna mayo sandwich dengan butter croissant. orang degil patut sesekali learn her lesson ;-)

dan ini hasil kerja orang demam yang masih dedar.

sambil menaip entry ni pun badanku berpeluh2... i was hopping aku cepat sihat. esok nak kerja.

Thursday 21 May 2009

Of Late

I know I haven’t been writing that much of late. And if I did, it will be mostly about my baking project (passion) which seems to have blossom rapidly. I was trying to shun all thoughts and relieve the pressures of office work by getting myself fully and deeply (madly) into baking. While doing that, I become absorbed in my own world. Like Alice in her wonderland. As I said before, cooking and baking works as a therapy for me. Moreover when you are blessed with children like mine who never short for words of praise. And a husband who doesn’t know how to cook, for he would always appreciate my cooking’s.

Talking about children, Fahmi for the first time skipped school on Monday because he was down with high fever. We brought him to the clinic on Sunday, the doctor said he had swollen and reddish tonsils which explains his lack of appetite the day before and also explains his thirst for chilled water. The children was taught not to take chilled water, so at home they normally drink lukewarm water. Except on the occasional eat out treat they are allowed to have chilled juice.

Alhamdulillah, Fahmi religiously took all the medication prescribed by the doctor. He recovers speedily. The next day he’s all ready for school. The fever has gone but now replaced with flu, but it is not so bad. He shared them with his sister… who transmitted the bug to her mama. So now, I started to get sore throat and joint ache... and sometimes headache. So far, hubby has been spared.

These photos of Yaya taken on last Saturday evening before we left to Nilai, attending the birthday party that auntie Fiza throw for her son. Fahmi's body temperature has started to rise before we left.


The dress was a birthday gift from auntie Fiza. Yaya seems to have developed a fondness towards dresses and gowns which her mama fully supports ;-). Last month I bought two gowns for her, one as a birthday gift that I bought during jusco sales – it was so cheap, another was an expensive flower-girl-like gown in pink – it was so pretty I can’t help myself. Its like making my childhood dream comes true beacuse i was never dressed in gown when i was her age. My father hates me in gowns and he hated it when mom put up my hair into a pony tail. Does that explains my tomboyishness during my teenage years? well, maybe...

Thursday 14 May 2009

A Card & A Cake

yesterday fahmi brought home a handmade mother's day card from school. last week on the last day of his school i was already wondering if he's going to bring back 'something' for me, but when he came back with nothing special in his bag, i thought the school was so ignorant of such occasion. rupa2nya the card came in 3 days after the actual occasion, which is OK for me daripada takde langsung. so this is the simple card that fahmi made at school.

cheeky yaya make fahmi blushed when she dubbed the card 'Surat Cinta' because of the big heart on the front. so sweet... i'm going to frame this. my first mother's day card from fahmi.
teacher's day is in 2 days time. last year fahmi presented a box of chocolate to his teacher intan at smart reader. but since i'm so into baking mood, i'm baking carrot cake for his teachers at tadika strawberry. frosting the cake with cream cheese icing all over was really a tough job. the combination of cream cheese, butter and icing sugar are not firm enough and does not hold together at the sides of the cake. it tends to drip, i had to leave it in the fridge before i proceed to the next decoration.

since 16mei falls on saturday which is a no school day, fahmi will bring this cake tomorrow instead.

yaya won't be missed out on this years' teacher's day. coz she'll bring some cuppies for her teacher Nurin at smart reader. so this year no ready made presents for their teachers. insyaAllah kalau mama masih terdaya *wink*

Monday 11 May 2009

What I Did Last Weekend

the peanut butter cuppies that i made on saturday, complete the decoration with choc ganache, buttercream swirl and walnut on crown, drizzled with my homemade caramel saucethe ben10 cake that i bake and decorate using wilton stiff buttercream and ben10 printed on edible icing. mind you i'm not well trained in piping images ( i have no formal training!), thus i cheat by using edible icingthis cake was made to fulfil my fahmi's dream cake. thought of making this on his 6th birthday next year but it is still ages away. since i'm in the mood for baking, i made them anyway. fahmi dedicated this cake to me as a mother's day gift. hah! ben10 mother's day cake? only fahmi can make it sounds so sweet. but really that was so sweet of him.

While I Was Busy

as i was busy with my baking project over the weekend, i didn't get to pay much attention to my kids. pity them coz eventhough mama not working on saturday, they still didn't get to spend time bermanja dengan mama. these photos shows how they deal with lack of my motherly attention...

saturday photos
with mama lack of attention, they divert their attention to nature, hence these pictures of pokok2 in our small yard




these were taken by kakak, whom i suspected were also suffering from boredom, photgraphing the kids who pretended that they were cameleon, seeking disguise dicelah2 pokok daun birah. or were they shooting for national geography trying to show us how large daun birah can grow sampai boleh buat selimut?

sunday photos... indoor photoshoot ;-P
the one in the photo were pretending she was in the America's Next Top Model run, while the one taking the shoot pretending he was nigel barker

all of these were taken by fahmi while i was busy giving final touch to the ben10 cake



the photographer being a photographer doesn't like when the model decides to play photographer instead...muka boring jer

in the end i had to confiscated the camera away because in the end they both were fighting like cat & dog over the camera

Sunday 10 May 2009

Plans For Today

see if i can live it up to another day packed with to-do list. i have to finish decorating my ben10 cake which gonna eat up most of my time today, i have to find time to go to my cousin's house at taman bunga negara to collect 'beleda' i.e agar2 kering kiriman my uncle last month - i feel like one terrible niece sebab tak cepat2 ambil beleda tu and in the mean time i also have to find time to go to the watch shop kat subang parade to get my watch repaired - rosak my watch hadiah mother's day 2 tahun lepas from hubby dikerjakan dek dua orang anakku yang mischievious ni.

both my kids were up early today. which means kerja2 decorating cake ku akan menjadi bertambah lembab sebab in between i'll be yelling and screaming to both of them yang tak serik-serik mengacau.

okay got to go now.

btw, Happy Mother's Day to all fabulous mothers out there.

Saturday 9 May 2009

Living Up To My Plans

horayy! i've finally live up to my own expectation and plans.
i managed to drag myself out of bed for a brief running this morning. i swear i was very discreet in my movements dalam gelap dalam bilik early this morning, thus i didn't expect my 2 kids to be disturb by my early rise sampaikan both of them nak ikut go running with mama. i talked yaya out of it coz she had to get ready for her saturday class. fahmi insisted he wants to come so i had no choice but to bring him along. the problem is he doesn't have a proper running shoes. so i just get him to wear his school shoes instead.

oh and as i suspected last night, the mak ciks & nyonyas from the tai chi group was there this morning. we managed to do 3 full round only, lepas tu berjalan keliling padang & taman perumahan. fahmi mula2 terasa kekok nak jogging and he merungut sakit kaki but after a while dia pulak yang seronok. he was sweating and i told him running and sweating is good for his body which he kept on telling yaya the same thing the whole day terutama bila dia ajak yaya berbasikal petang tadi.

hubby asked me betul ke today is mother's day? well, i don't know exactly which date but i know it's in the mid of may. well, i can't be bothered coz i was very busy with my baking project. had it not for the fact that hubby was at home today i wouldn't be taking any break from my baking to prepare a quick lunch, that is chicken pizza with loads and loads of shredded chicken meat, smoked turkey slice, chicken salami and beef pepperoni all in one go. because i was too busy today, i tried to coerce him into helping me preparing the dough. unfortunately usaha ku (or should i say usaha hubby) tidak berjaya. the dough turns into rock hard stone bukannya dough tepung! my goodness... kena aku jugaklah buat semuanya... tak boleh nak subcon any part of my work in the kitchen. sungguh keras tangan!

my meaty pizza, no mushroom, no capsicum the way i used to do. so i had to make do with all the meat and replaced capsicum with green chillies instead, kalau tak terasa pedas langsung kurang sedap pulak dengan tekak melayu hubby. owh the bbq sauce on top did wonders to my pizza... umm so yummy!

dinner malam nanti hubby ajak makan kat luar. i'm so grateful for his offer coz badan dah tak larat nak bekerja kat dapur lagi ;-)

Friday 8 May 2009

Plans For Long Weekend

ohh... tomorrow's another long weekend because i don't have to work on saturday. it's public holiday in selangor inconjunction with wesak day. kalau dulu2 long weekend sebegini memang sangat dinantikan, coz aku boleh berehat sepuasnya. but nowadays long weekend sebegini means more and more project menanti. my baking project of course. i couldn't wait for long weekends, my hands itch and my brain just can't stop making plans and visualising things for my project. umpamanya kalau my weekend pass by macam tu aja without doing anything aku rasa menyesal sangat dan terasa rugi masa yang berlalu macam tu aja.

i thought of going for a jog tomorrow morning. jog a few round of the football field kat perumahan aku ni. maklumlah sejak 2-3minggu ni terasa badan berat sikit, duduk kat rumah bukannya bersenam pun. my only exercise was berjalan kat shopping complex heheh.

selalunya hujung minggu padang tu sunyi sepi. esok tak taulah sepi or not coz nowadays tiap weekday pagi aku nampak sekumpulan mak cik2 & nyonya bersenam tai chi. it would be good to join them tapi malu pulak coz tak kenal. lama benar tak ber tai chi. tai chi ni satu senaman yang sangat menenangkan. masa zaman remaja dulu tiap hujung minggu me & my sister ikut nyonya2 ber tai chi. that was 17years ago... my goodness! lama nya.

lepas berjogging (itupun kalau mata mau buka) kena hantar yaya ke saturday class dia. while waiting for her class to end, i'm going to pay a quick visit to bagus. grab a few things pastu fetch yaya. hmm... fahmi and yaya pun dah buat tempahan awal apa yang diaorang nak mama masakkan weekend ni. its going to be a long, full weekend. and hopefully a fruitful one.

Monday 4 May 2009

Hati Sakit

aku balik kerja hari ni dengan perasaan yang bercampur baur. aku rasa sedih, kecewa, geram, bosan dan macam2 lagi. apparently my advice dan usaha aku nak perbaiki keadaan was not appreciated. bukan itu saja, niat baik aku diperkecilkan. and i was told to do things the other way round, forget about what is right and what is wrong, just do as i'm instructed to do. what would you do if you are in my shoes? i was thinking apa guna aku kat sini kalau aku cuma jadi tukang angguk je? i have ethics tau. aku pun tak nak today aku angguk je later kalau things blow up aku juga yang dipersalahkan sebab tak advice benda yang betul. selama ni segala benda buruk yang berlaku because of past mistakes aku juga yang kena shoulder. useless sangatlah aku kalau aku tak learn from past mistakes, kan?

i did what i did because i care. kalau aku tak bother pasal the company's well being memang aku takkan bersusah payah buat semua ni. kalau aku tak bother pasal company ni, aku pun tak ingin nak buang air liur bertekak... dahlah aku puasa. but for the first time kali ni aku betul2 bertekak dengan dia. i know dia terkejut bila aku bertegang urat dengan dia, memang dia boss aku... tapi biarlah aku buat dia marah hari ni daripada later dia salahkan aku sebab tak advice benda yang betul. aku tak mau after i'm gone orang menyumpah aku. biarlah hari ni dia kata aku dah berubah or dia dah tak kenal siapa aku just because i voice out my opinion aloud. the truth is dia memang tak pernah cuba nak kenal siapa aku or listen to what i have to say. just because i stood up on my grounds suddenly i become a different person. well, work sucks!

even in my personal life pun aku sangat berhati2 not to repeat kesilapan lepas. kan kita belajar & improve diri daripada past mistakes? i started to ask myself the same question i've been asking myself all this while and again - apa gunanya aku kat sini?

Saturday 2 May 2009

Kereta Merahku

Kononnya weekend yang panjang ni bolehlah aku berehat sepuas2nya. Tapi tau jelah aku kalau hubby takde memang cepat bosan. Akhirnya aku buat keputusan untuk balik ke rumah my mum lepas habis kelas yaya. Lagipun there’s a wedding to attend, anak jiran dekat pulak tu. Dah lama tak attend wedding jiran2, masa aku kawin dulu mak cik2 nilah yang banyak menolong. And yaya will get to dress up in her new gown that I bought as her birthday present ;-).

Tapi ada masalah besar pulak. Pagi ni masa nak hantar yaya ke kelas, aircon kereta aku tak mau hidup. Blower pun takde… senyap sunyi tak berangin langsung. Nak hantar ke worksyop nanti patah kaki pulak aku anak beranak tak boleh bergerak ke mana2. Hubby pulak takde nak back up kami. Akhirnya aku gamble jugak teruskan agenda balik rumah my mum dengan kepanasan yang melampau dalam kereta. Dahlah cuaca tengah panas terik sekarang ni, leather seat pulak tu, memang macam bertih jagung jadinya kami. Bawa kereta lawa2 tapi kena turunkan window. Jimat petrol… heheh konon! Kesian anak2 aku tertidur dalam kepanasan berpeluh2.

After the wedding reception, abang ipar aku ajak pergi worksyop kawan dia kat senawang. Dia memang dah biasa servis beemer 7 series model lama dia kat situ. The mechanic confirm what I already suspected; the aircond sensor system rosak. But there’s further discovery yang buat aku susah hati – head gasket bocor, minyak hitam leaking. Hmm… confirm kali ni kereta aku kena dok worksyop seminggu coz ada lagi benda2 lain nak kena buat. Maklum jelah kereta dah masuk 7 tahun, dah start buat hal macam2. Kena bawa balik subang juga kereta ni. Emm nak pi kerja naik apa aku next week?

Friday 1 May 2009

May Day

Hubby left for his kampung while I was still in bed early this morning. He was called back to help menabur baja at PIL’s rubber estate. Though it is going to be a long weekend I decided not to join because Yaya’s saturday class is still on and there’s nothing much I can help at the estate. Furthermore I’ve already made plans for my baking project ;-).

My baking project begins as early as I leave bed (how early is that depends on what time i woke up...;-P). I started off with preparing the buttercream; wilton style – stiff and sweet to iced the cupcakes that I’m going to bake, later. I wanted to bake green tea cupcake but I don’t have green tea powder in my pantry, which means I have to go out and get some from the baking shop or the supermarket? I went to cold storage first since I also have a list of groceries to buy. Tapi terasa bosan pulak nak pergi shopping sorang2, nak bawa both fahmi & yaya rasa crowded sangat. Akhirnya kuheret yaya aja sebab yaya ni tahan sabar bershopping lama2. I was lucky fahmi tak merungut sebab tak ajak dia. I told him to stay at home; finished off his homework and watch tv since it’s his off day from school. I got back from shopping pun dah almost 1pm. Since hubby is not around bolehlah aku cuti memasak apatah lagi makan. I leave it to kakak to prepare the kids lunch for today. As for me, aku sibukkan diri membaking and decorating sampai pukul 6pm baru berhenti rehat dan mandi.



cubed cream cheese inside

Dinner tadi we went to secret recipe at bukit jelutong. Sunyinya makan sedap2 tanpa hubby. Nasib the kids didn’t lost their wits and antics… terhibur juga aku dengan gelagat diaorang. Fahmi sangat teruja nak makan lasagna but in the end dia tak larat pun nak habiskan his lasagna. While yaya on the other hand, buat aku terkejut bila dia habiskan sepinggan chicken spaghetti, walaupun kiddies portion tapi masih banyak. Yaya said dia serupa macam ‘kirimaru’ watak kartun dalam siri Hagemaru yang kuat makan. Hahaha… I guess she is right, she is kuat makan.